all my friends and family
they soar in the sky
open in the blue open free sky
calling to me
begging me to join them
but I cant
the  waves lap against my wings
where I'm barely floating
saturating my feathers
keeping me from going to join them

for me you were a chapter
written in beautiful words
written in smiles and tears
in anger and sadness
in happiness and comforting
but I'm sure for you
I was only a line
written in a quick scribble

she was the moon
shining bright in the darkness
and he was always there
to make sure she shined bright
but he wasn't the  sun
no, he was far from that
he was the darkness
that makes sure she shines all around him

zoom in on you screaming
your hands beating
purple bruises on the surface
zoom out on me

zoom in to catastrophe
your arms choking
stealing cold breaths from soft lips
zoom out on me

zoom in on your apology
words flowing off your lips
thoughts that maybe you truly are sorry
zoom out on me

zoom in on your voice
whispering how much love
you had welling up on the surface
zoom out on me

zoom in on you screaming
bruises once again
growing purple
zoom out on me finally leaving

i hate you
i tried to be nice
tried to beat around the bush
so please stop
i cant stand to see you type
i love you
when i know you don't
and that i cant

the worst prisons arent in citys
arent the ones with bars
but the prisons we lock ourselves in
the prisons that live in our heads

i usually dont cry
i would say I've done pretty good
at shutting you out but
last night was the very first time
I had you run through my mind
at I thought I was going to die with you in my heart

I usually go out with friends
not even thinking of you once
but then I hear our song again
and for some reason, it takes me back

I usually don't break
when I hear your name
traveling out someone's mouth
really thought I was done with the hardest part
learned how to pull myself out of your arms