You keep begging me
To run back in your burning house
Reminding me I could stand the flames
They hadn't burnt me that bad
Because you couldn't see
My tear streaked face
Covered in soot
You where to busy on the couch
Looking for the next thing to shoot
You cant beg me to back slide
Just because its cold out here
The flames might be your comfort
But I think I'll just buy blankets

I've met the devil
On several Sundays
He's always sitting alone
His bottle dripping liquor burning
I've seen his testimony
Know its riddled with lies
I've sat and danced with temptation
Till the powder under my nose
Brought me begging on his doorstep
For a way to let go
Gave up my demons
So I wouldn't end up Dead in a ditch
But I still talk to the devil
Whenever im caught in a pinch

Watch me
In this cage I built
Made myself a zoo animal
For you all to watch
I let them break me
Set me off to no end
But its just a show
I've put it on for years
What character do you want
Because id do any act
If it got me out of this cage

Early 2000s
Mama's on weight watches
So I learn the food equals points
To many points your a fat girl
Less you accumulate
The more your rewarded
Because if your skins
not stuck to your bones
Then is life worth living
These bad habits
I attribute to you
When maricino cherry
Only equal 2 points
But heaven forbid I eat a whole meal
And end up my own worst nightmare
Now your voice echos clear
Through every bite making me sick
Till I put the fork down
Disgusted with myself
And the person I let you create

If I drift
For long enough
Maybe they won't notice
When my bones fade away
And I disappear to
N O T H I N G
NOTHING
NOTHIN
NOTHI
NOTH
NOT
NO
T

There's a ghost that haunts my mind
A Mary Beth that died
With stars still shining in her eye
Well I've been running my whole life
I can hear her plotting
In the back corners of my brain
It starts a whole reaction train
A type of buzzing
That you feel inside your veins
And I've been running
For so long
But I've been listening
What if she's not wrong

Locking up the cabinet doors
I've been battling
With food since I was four
Tell me its for the better
That starving will make me happier

Cameras on the kitchen door
Don't just eat because your boerd
Couldn't tell the difference
Between hunger and an inference
I'll just wait until it hurts

Now every bite is like a chore
Feeling nauseous with each more
But if I need food to live
Why would you make ut impossible
For me to eat