You became who you said you'd never become.

I'm already dead, no need for resuscitation.

My heart is still cracked and you say you understand but you don't not really and I wish I could make you but I couldn't hurt anyone like that I wish you knew I wish I could tell you I wish I wasn't afraid I wish I wish I wish I loved you as much as you say you love me but I'm afraid to let you in and I'm afraid to give you the power to hurt me because last time I did that I was fatally wounded and I can't bleed out again my heart can't take it

All the love poems in the world wouldn't be enough.

Get out of my head

I hope that the shard of my heart you still hold turns to glass and slices open the delicate skin of your palm

Do you recognize your own vulnerability?

The first night without you, I cried like an abandoned child and bit my fingernails for the first time in years. I drank straight from a bottle of wine I snuck from the pantry. I spun violently around my room, letting an angry record spin. Later, I hit my fist against the wall of the shower as I washed off all my shame and anger in ice cold water. Then I spent the rest of that godawful night shivering in my bed like the shattered heart that I was, my skin shaking and rising over my fragile bones. And no one knew, and no one knew...

I only wear waterproof mascara now, just in case a song plays or a smell drifts through the air and I can't stop the tears from spilling out

Your breathing was shallow
And I longed for it's warmth
Against my goosebump covered neck

I spent hours in your arms
and realized that there was no place
I would rather be

The heart knows what the mind does not

I think I need to find a bigger place
Cause when you have more than you think, you need more space

You gave me a bottle of lavender even though you knew I hated it.
I only opened it twice - when I received it and that night.
I found that bottle last night, hidden away in dark corners.
The minute I opened it, I regretted it.
The once sweet smell was putrid.
I coughed and heaved and felt tears ***** my eyes.
No. Please no.
...
Never again. Never.
The memory passed and I saw red.  
I gripped the tiny bottle until my knuckles turned white.
With power I didn't know I had, I threw that bottle at the wall.
It shattered, just like everything else...
So I opened my window and let the world know of your sin.

Don't haunt me
Gather up the lost and sold
Into your arms
Gather up the pitiful
In your arms
What seems impossible
I think I have had my fill
*I think I should give up the ghost

Don't give it a hand, offer it a soul
Honey, make this easy.
Leave it to the land, this is what it knows
Honey, that's how it sleeps.
Don't let it in with with no intention to keep it
Jesus Christ, don't be kind to it.
Honey don't feed it, it will come back.

I broke my heart
before you had
the chance to.

I will never be who you wanted me to be

Through it all, my heart continues to ache for you.

Don't you dare say I didn't try.
You have no idea how hard I tried.
I tried
I tried
I tried

You're filling every crack and I am not objecting

When this world upsets me,
this music sets me free

It would be a lie
to say that I love someone
more than I loved you

You make me nauseous. ******* sick. I am disgusted. Revolted.
How did I ever? ****, how did I ever?

Today I ripped up the first "I love you" note you ever gave me.
It felt good, admittedly.
It felt like fearlessness.
It felt like freedom.

The pressure is gone -- thank god, you love me still.

You're only a disappointment if you allow yourself to be

I threw away your things today.
Love letters, fake flowers, incense, clothes.
You gave it to me, it's gone.
I can't stand to look at you, let alone the things you left behind.
So I got rid of it all.
Now, I'm a little bit freer.

How many nights have I spent with my lanky arms wrapped around a long ago chest caved in, whispering to the wind "I don't want to be here, please help me".

"I think I love you. ****, I know it's way too early and things with Rachel didn't end well and you probably aren't ready to say anything along those lines, but... I had to say it or I would've exploded. You don't have to say it back, Leigh. I just had to, still have to, say it.... I love you I love you I love you."

It's you, you ******* idiot. You're the one causing your own issues. Are you so blind? For ***** sake. Idiot. ******* IDIOT.

Genius in one way.
Idiot in another.
Which one will make you happy?
Which one will take you further?

It's a swing of the hips
and a flick of the wrist
that puts me
at the starting point

I'm tired of dealing with something so unimportant

You had to learn the hard way
that you can't always get what you want

Have it all, lose it all
You ready for more yet?

You once told me that my skin was that of a porcelain doll
and now I feel like one that's been thrown against a wall,
skin cracking and waiting to be glued back together.

I'll spend the rest of my life blaming myself for something you did

It's beaten
It's over
It's done
I have finally *won

I spent weeks coughing up blood, but now it races through my veins