Do you also wake up in the middle of the night and almost reach for me
because you forgot that I'm not there anymore?
I slept next to someone else last night,
But I had a dream that I was next to you,
And I have never felt more disappointed in my life than in that moment when I woke up.
I can't tell which is worse, the disappointment or
Trying to sleep while holding myself together because it feels like everything is about to spill out of me.

According to everyone I should just go meet someone else,
but it's not that easy.
I have no interest in talking to anyone when I'm sober,
When I'm drunk I just end up telling everyone about you.
I can't tell if I'm waiting for someone to confirm that you're never coming back
Or for someone to lie to me so I can feel better for the night.

Can I ***** out all my feelings too, along with the *****?
I almost thought I had, the night I was dry heaving into the morning.
That was the night I got so drunk I couldn't stop asking everyone I saw
Why
Didn't
You
Love
Me?
I'm sure all the strangers in the room thought I was crazy.
I have dreams about you all the time and even in my dreams,
You still don't love me.

If I stare at your Facebook chat bubble long enough,
Will I see the three dots of you beginning to type a message?
If I stare out my window long enough,
Will I see you walking towards my front door?
I still want to punch a hole through the wall whenever I hear a song that you used to sing to me.
That's become particularly annoying
since the Chainsmokers got popular.
Apparently I can't get over you
while still listening to your SoundCloud playlists
But I'm not sure what else is worth listening to.

The other day, my friend commented on how fast I walk.
I told him it was because I had gotten used to your speed
since you're much taller than me.
In reality, I think it's just to make up for the parts of my life
that haven't been moving at all.

She was everything
She was the coffee on a cold winters morning
She was the glass of water in the middle of the desert
She was the sun of my darkness
When she was away all I felt was pain
She drove me insane with the beauty she possessed
Even when she looked like a mess
She was my pillow when I needed to sleep
She was the only thing I could keep
Only she was the one that made me weep when she left
She was the one that stole my heart
I should've seen it right from the start
Now I will have to wait
At this gate
With hate
For a new mate....

The thoughts stirred in my mind
I've never done anything of this kind
I should've read all the signs
Instead, I fell outside the lines
That lead me to the decline of my heart
If I had been smart
I would want to start all over
But love is like looking for that four-leafed clover.

I spent the money for you
Every word I wrote was true
I packaged it with care
But all I got was a glare
I drove all the way to your house
Only for you to make me feel like a mouse
I left it on the doorstep
And not even a thank you??
These words will bleed
I guess you don't need me anymore
You fill your life with everything but me
I know I am sounding selfish
But at least talk to me
Let me know that you're still alive
Just so I can survive.
I miss you b

We’ve been together 7 years
Blind Faith is all we know
So just like Ruth I speak this truth
Where you go I will go

When struggles made us face our fears
Firm to the winds that blow
That we still elevate our years
With what we reap we sow

I want to live where you live
In harmony and peace
Only you my love to give
Till my last breath will cease

You question love and life
My Dear, you say the bar is low
No need for taking flight
No need to wonder if I’ll go

Much of my past was full
Of change that struck like lightening
Frantic and tense the rule
Unpredictable and frightening

We’ll share more moments together
Even with some push and shove
This sheltering tree I treasure
Basking in our blooming love

I repeat it’s true
With a glad free heart once again
Just to be with you
Is the best place I’ve ever been