when we first
met
your hands were still
and unoteable

when we fell
in love
your hands were
in mine
on my lips
in my hair
all over my skin

now
they are wrapped around
my throat

and I wonder
if it is any different

when i was
a child
a bird flew into
our window
and died
i cried when my mother said
that it happens all the time
and i wondered
why they didn't just
change direction

but now that i am
in love with
you
and i know that i will
crash
when you stop loving me
i understand
that it is so hard
to turn around and
avoid the window
because what if
it for once
was open

in the morning
when the sun arrives
and there is a new day
i am so disgusted
by you
and i wish
you would leave me
alone

but at night
when i am lonely
i am in love
with you
with all of my heart