what doesn't **** you
doesn't make you stronger

it doesn't do anything at all

nothing.

I'm a cast away
From my own
I'm a second away
From all I know
I'm a smiling *****
At least to you
You are a sweet forget
From all I knew.
You are the shrew
Little boy.
I'm not your ****
Or little toy.
You, you I try
To avoid.
Scenic routes
Are better inside.
Inside myself where
I take my own steps.
Being alone I've
Figured is the
Best,

when I dropped
your favourite mug
and it shattered
into a thousand pieces
when I spoke
your name
and only silence
was my greeting
when I played
your favourite song
and I couldn't hear
your voice
singing
when I laid down
in bed alone
I didn't feel your touch
just the raw stinging
when I showered
waiting for you
to peek
I stepped out
mute
wrapped in
aloneness
wishing your ghost
could speak

My strength comes from my anger
My anger comes from my pain
My pain comes from my failure
My failure is my shame

Adrenaline pushes me forward
Synapses  fire in my brain
My ideas become my plans
My plans drive me insane

The spiral is unending
It keeps taking me around
It crushes my inner being
It dumps me to the ground

I keep on listening
I hear the deathly sound
My voice has denied me
I can't be heard in the crowd

My life is bittersweet
It's left a sour taste in my mouth
Since the day that i was born
My life's been going south