it took
the smell
of coffee grounds
and smokey burnt wood
13 days
to finally escape
from the thick fabrics
of my favorite sweatpants
and I promised myself
I'd never let you
burrow away
into the deepest parts
of me
just to keep warm;
23 nights from November
and I'm still digging you out
from underneath my skin.
and that Sunday night
at 12:37 AM;
remnants of
melted rouge kisses
overflowed
from the surface
of the birthmark
on your left shoulder-blade
when I traveled across
the terrains
of every inch
of your back
with my bottom lip;
sweeter
than the sugarcanes in my tea
sending chills
up every bone
in my body
and I knew you
had finally found your home
for the winter.





Copyright ©  2015 Alyssa Packard
All Rights Reserved

My thoughts drip slowly through
my skull
I'm tired and lonely
I feel weighed down by the world
Somebody injected my bones
with lead
I want him to be here
but he can't be
So I'm opting to be alone
instead of pulling him down
under my pool of sadness.
Besides, he's got an ocean
to deal with.
It wouldn't be fair.

I often wonder how
The cold has come to go
Somedays are better
Than others
But will I truly ever
Be the same?  

How is it when you
Left
You took me with you
...

The most painful thing is loosing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too.

I let you go
My
Friend
Companion
Commitments
My love
I let you go
I let it all
Go

You can't have her and I
I will not be picked second for I was the first
And I will never be second

I let you go
Because you are not my number
One