She spoke to me the hardened words
that lie so deep in hiding
I should be more
Not done enough
and soon I shall be leaving
my dreams to make a better world
with tired steps I'm grieving

Be my lover, my sister, my mother
you open your vision that I may be nourished

Humans being one hundred strong
Raised the energy, an affirming throng
That night we agreed to bend the laws
next day we'd return to effect from cause
Yet I forget this lesson learned
On burning coals, no one was burned.
Despondency is truly tragic
We live and breathe and walk in magic.

How can I write a life
     while running scattered swatting gnats
                        Grasping after dessicated joys ?
How then to draw my dream
          when focused on the **** and tats
                      Credence given unrelenting ploys ?

                  I'm concertmaster after all
                           Forgetting this
                    Direction is downfall.

You are beloved, mate of my brother
staying with him as no one else could
your love surviving the end we saw coming
surviving yourself, remembering the good

I pull away now as you're with another
promising safety that you've never known
the bond that we share a painful reminder
death holds immortal what he'll never own

How do we honor the journey we've traveled
though seemingly over it streams underground
I can't see the path that allows safe communion
I pray from afar that it's joy that you've found

seeking fulfillment
         in dreams travel far
    yet bless being present
                complete where we are

Some call it fun
         we slam slam the water
can't stop too late too far to go
         slow's as rough as fast you see
it's nightmare ***
          we slam slam the water
Ride it to the end pray God
          stay low  just bend  no power
force of speed hard water        
brace against the hit-ting hit-ting
stop just             stop
    I can't                 can't
       endure              dure
          more            ­     *more

As critic rails
   self doubt prevails
exhausting weight
          a sorry fate
Sweet muse must hide
       from caustic thought
   this lonely ride
            illusion fraught
In this day offered gift of choice
  to which aspect the thrill of voice ?
Or shall I hide in self thought shame ?
    glad or mad distraught the game
         If thought begets
             and love makes shine
   what is to lose by
              claiming mine...?
**the dream I came to live for

Poet with the wounded soul
            Let your lover suffering go
        It is time for you to know
            beyond the pain a light will show
                  another path to follow now
  Dare this step and you'll see how        
         you're welcome as a blessed chance
              in partnership to join the dance
Hearts are everywhere need healing
   help to raise a body kneeling
Offer grace to one who's lonely
Find your joy if you will only
    choose to part the veils that hide you
Love is flowing full inside you
              **to be shared
                      Be not scared
                          You're not done
                                  Welcome One

resounding chords ascend   from lifelike paper notes
   augmented visions shape   curves in deepest space                      
       perceptions do portray     a storied truth of now
          branding this reality        mine and yours unique                      
            so often in agreement       *and so we co-create