the better i get - it is
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it is to grasp

you want to tear me down
I always leave without a sound.
Its never me
But you make it me
I can never please you
Just as much as I can
Never stop hating you
Too much poison and confusion,
Its harder and harder
everysingle day

and theres no denying
I hate to feel this way
Im so used to it
Its all real
here I am again
summer after summer
***** and dusty
pale and thick
hot and sticky


withering away
getting bigger with hate
smaller with confidence
these words its all I feel
all I have

It wont amount to you

I could try to be just as bad as you
just as pathetic and worthless

I wont.

A slap in the face
a rush of pain
my hearts racing
pumping faster
like a frate train
Ease it
heal it
make it go away
end this pain
cure my hell
Ill pray forever
can you tell?

The Intelligence you posess
Is the beauty beyond all that Ive ever known
I am intrigued yet delicatley intimidated
My heart floats
You are the emphasis of everything that is right
for everytime Im lost,
There You are - Holding me comfortable
And ever so tight

Its only time
thats all we need
time is the essence of what we need
your what i breathe
your all I feel
Everything I see
Is Surrounded By you

I cant allow myself
to come to a logical
and reasonable explanation
I never meant to be
this deceitful hurtful disgusting
Person
But I was
I did things that even I cant understand
I pushed you away
I made you hurt for me till you hurt no more
yet for the reasons beyond any
your still in my life
Your still the one I love
and the one I cant deny
I want every second wth you