I use to enjoy our pub chats,
sipping shot of gin and tonics
and 3 pints of 1664's and another
shot of whiskey,
we were set laughing,
talking about punk,
squats and art deco
and singing badly
to the karaoke machine.

You always put a
smile on my face
even though you
knew death was
what was coming,
can see it in your eyes
holding in the tears
you knew you
couldn't win this fight.

LIFE was cruel to you;
you never deserved
the punishment
you every day endured,
you taught me much.

Don't ever live life how
they want you to be
find your happy place
slow yourself down KIMMY
really concentrate and take
everything in
you'll be great
forget relationshits
they hold you back.

Most people are mean
and unkind ,
kept telling him
not everyone is bad,
there is good in
everything that
crosses the path.

He grunted and laughed
you'll see one day, kid
your daft but i like you all the same,
you are sweet KIMMY and one of a kind!

He could see the pain in my eyes too;
I have many mental scars
they take years to heal
enduring them
made me strong
know I'm wrong
maybe sometimes.  

I still appreciate your words
you never sugar coat
told me your TRUTH
didn't believe in lies
always had your dog
by your side.

I will only give
out the two finger
salute of *******
if anyone deserved,
my mate would laugh
like your style KIMMY
you got *****...
love your comedic quips
and tips
you showed me that
Art can be made from
any recycled resources
make most of
what you have
a true artist is a
visionary can
make anything
and regenerate
its inner beauty.

before you passed on
had dreams with the number 3
dark scary ones at night,
gave me a huge fright
something bad is happening,
but weren't sure what it was
just a gut feeling my nan
would say, woke up
feeling like death
with shakes and sweats  

find out a few days later
my gut wasn't wrong
you were laying in hospital,
week later  you passed on
couldn't control the tears
was in shock,
wished i could have
given you a massive
hug and real goodbye,

you and your dog
entered the rainbow
bridge the same time.

Miss you both every day,  
your artwork makes me smile
and i owe you a huge thank you
for being there and being a good friend
glad we did get to meet in LIFE
your such amazing spirits hope
you get to find the inner peace
you were looking for and deserved.

Do not touch
what don't belong to you
my things are my  self worth
and pride

Drunk man took my hat
show some respect;
could see he was the ****
didn't laugh
told him... give the hat back
you just don't do that
unless of course
you were looking
for the slap.

I could hear Alex
voice in my head
grunt and curse
tempers sway, fists
getting ready to fly.
I take control
have a cool down
moment to think, 
I'll leave the fight,
it ain't worth it
not take the bait
lets just call it a night
leave the pub with
my dignity
and respect intact
face still in one piece
before this could get worst.

Being told your ill
from a child,
born with
internal conflict
and confusion

Head spinning
into constant
trances, dream
states.

Brain jumps,
going into a loop
mind adjusts
and increases volume

TEMPO, TEMPO
Loud irregular thoughts
echo and magnify
wish it would shut up
can hear voices
telling me things
I do not need to know.

At eight always a loner:
mute and on edge,
taunted in school
for being slow.

What people forget
is that I know a lot
of things, my mind
never forgets
******* and lies
people spread.

The body defends
fortress of steel,
brings on flight and fight
anger rages quick,
feel like a ticking clock.

Thumping out aloud,
brain is now intense
starts slow, quicker then
fast before you know it
lands the final blow,
before it drifts in and out
zoning and hearing peace.

Looks sweet to the taste,
but bitter mistress,
she torments
swept me of my feet
dancing with the demon,
that one last dance
poisons my insides,
you sure you want to take that sip?
I will leave you with no cash
you won't have the last laugh.  
I'll leave you with jitters and sweats,
wake up with no recollection
of what's been done and said
but a dizzy, nautious feeling
of everything closing in
There be no escape
waking up with a sore head
repeat, drink, sleep
exactly the same thing every day.  

I woke up once from her spell…
in a coma state half awake
half asleep sat alone in the dark
in a park with no idea of how
I've got there hearing
muffled voices  

feeling alone
cold, confused and scared,
figured I wouldn't be here
so I no longer had any fear.

Alcohol got her revenge...

she led me on the path
and left me again.

I'm a little wild,
love seeing you smile,
even if its for a short while.
I follow my own path,
where ever that takes  
feeling human energy
chemistry of life
warmth of the sun
real energy flow
not this constant
*******, negative
vibes  just love
at pure form
the very thing we sow.

Eloquently the butterfly
swirls into the immortal sky,
clouds form into emerging
eyes, observing the gentle
rhythm of the sea.

The oak tree standing
guard while the cherry
tree blossoms they sprout
out fruit, seeds and petals:
which decorates the forest
birthing new life
celebrating each day
the harmony
the spirit of life.

The magnetism
of the cosmos aligns:
your energy pulsates
and flows through
your very being.

Your far away
at the same
time your near.

I am reading
each fragment,
each speck
of particle
of the universe.

We are but one,
our union binds
us together.

Energy of the twins
from the Gemini
star flows between us  

one being
one universe.