to remissness in self pity
leads to nothing helpful

to cry about the past
does absolutely nothing

to say how bad you have it
is somewhat selfish

to say that no one knows what you go through
only means you don't have a clue

to say that life  unfair
what is fair, you tell me

don't you know that
you control your own destiny

don't you know that
you are the only that can create your problem

a problem is on a problem if you create it
your life is your on life you create it

if you don't understand
talk to the creator

our father who walks in heaven

the father
the son
the holy ghost

their all in one

LOVE

We only have only one life,
to live,
to give,
to take....

To carry feelings,
of love,
of care,
of compassion...

To have meaning,
to be honest,
to be trustworthy,
to be truthful.....

To provide security.....
To guide...
To teach...
To inspire...
To motivate...

Easier said than done....

I hate the say "Life wasn't meant to be easy"
It becomes a mindset for some and then an excuse......

Life is what you make it....
Life can be easy....
Life can be hard...

It is controlled by your attitude towards life....

So, if you want to make it hard,
it will be hard.....

So, if you want to make it easy,
it will be easy.....

Your life is up to you and no one else...

Don't cut out my paper heart
I'm not dead just yet

Take a look at my eye's full of fire
Never trust a filthy liar

Slipping into the *****
Singing the blues

All dressed for that special day
Yet I keep tripping on the news

I say that I'm not myself
But I'm not dead and I'm not for sale

So keep your bankroll lottery
Eat your salad days deathbed motorcade

You fake the heat and scratch the itch
With your skinned up knees and salty lips

I won't breathe your vick's vapor life
I cringe when you all purge alike

It's only getting harder to hold onto
Yet one more trip and I'll be gone

So I'll keep my head up
While you try to keep my life down

Take a breath and make it big
It's the last you'll ever get

Break your neck with that diamond noose
It's your last chance will you ever choose

Nobody will be my master
Soul searching is quite the notion

So just let me be

Mind strong, Body strong
Try to find equilibrium
Head straight, ******* on
Been ******* up for too long

I don't want to lean on the waves
I watch the storm evaporate
I think of you in starry skies
I keep you so alive

It's all in your face
I see you break
It's like the sound of winter
The bleeding love, the silent escape
You've got to hang on to yourself
It's like the sound of winter

Medusa smiles, Judas lips
Open arms and finger tips
Love bites and Recompense
I'll be with you until the end

Lets walk through the fire together
Disappear in the golden sands

It's like the sound of winter
Hang on to yourself

As a walk down this path of death. My mind cannot comprehend the sights. It's not the blood, the guts spilled, the head cracked open, the beaten bodies, the decapated bodies or the disease striken.
Well actually I'm lying I hate blood, but that's besides the point.

It was a life, a life that once had hope, a future, a life to share, caring, loving, and giving person. It was a life.

That hurts me a lot,  but the toughest part for me is the pain and suffering of that person and their family went through. The chaios it brings into lives.

Don't ever think it can't happen to you or somebody you may know, because it can.

We can never prepare for things like this, but life is not all roses.

Know that where in the 21 centry and were in this fast pace life, don't take life for granted. Enjoy everyday, tell your friends and family everyday that you love them.

I'm not trying to upset anyone, all I'm trying to say is live everday like it's your last.

It makes me wonder why people have so many excuses

Life isn't fair to me
I was dealt this hand in life
It's not my fault
No one care's

Always wining
Nobody loves me

Give me a ******* break

I hear people say that God works in mysterious ways
God is not mysterious, they just don't know him

If your one of these people
******* grow up

Educate yourself
It's a great big world we live in

Plenty of, places, people and things, including jobs
Step out and be your own person

Sorry if I offend some of you
But you need to hear it sooner, then later

Excuses are tools of incompetency that build monument of nothing
And people who use them are seldom good at anything else

Good Luck!

To fill a void,
one will look for anything....

This gap we have in time,
is useally filled with thoughts.....

Of what may have gone wrong...
Of what may have gone right.....

We cry....
We smile....

Like a whisper in the night,
it just pases us bye,
and we resume life.....

Those voided moments in life,
will always come and go.....

Like the front pages of a novel,
they are reminders of our past....

Things that we sometimes wish,
we could change....

Then again it could be things,
We would never want to change...

We will always learn,
from difficulties in life....

More so then the,
easy side of life....

Stay true to yourself,
learn from the past......

And cherish your time,
you can never get it back.....

lonely laughter

buried love

hurting thoughts

saddened eyes

reckless mind

heartless times

scared feelings

painful tears

praying darkness

silent words

emotional fear

dark days

silent nights

winter chill

summer heat

blacked life

beside yourself

I look and find love only to be let down
It is such a long roller coaster ride I have to get off

I look to find and gather friends to be with
Only to find out they talk behind my back

I just look for people to hang with to pass time
But time passes and they usually drift away

I just look to be alone at times and self absorb
But something always interrupts my thoughts

I have met 2 and they are always with me
I would have to say they have never left my side

Never, Never, Not once, not even when I was

Depressed
Crying
Screaming
Laughing
Dying
Delusional
Lonely

How ever I acted they stayed

My two best friends always there
Never saying a word to me

Yet they always comfort me
They always knew what to do to change my mood
They always give me warmth and understanding

Oh how I love them
They have never left me

The needle and the spoon

Once upon a time I had a life,
and then I met her....

Jack be nimble Jack be quick,
are the times I ran from her.....

So Cinderella, you lost your slipper,
is that why you were out all night......

Your like the three little pigs,
you go from house to house........

So you were with snow white,
and slept with her seven dwarfs......

How do I know,
the old lady in the shoe, told me so....

You've lost your crown with me........

Your not Bambi, I can kick you out.......

All the kings horses and all the kings men,
can't fix this relationship again.....

I'm little boy blue,
with a life of the blue's with you.....

And we never lived happily ever after.

THE END

Thank god she's gone

Her name was Mary,  
and she was quite contrary and she didn't have a clue

Then she cried wee, wee, wee, all the way back to her home......

For real, she was a stripper........

When you listen to a love song,
what does it make you wants do...

It brings that smile to your face,
and you reminisce on love...

The love song ends,
and that love feeling fades away...

Reality sets in,
and the grind of life sets in....

The past of love,
the one we remember,
and the ones we forget....

The presence of love,
the true friends we have,
and the fam you hold....

The future of love,
something we dream about,
and you can always give....

No matter the song....
No matter the love....

It all comes from,
God above.....

Christmas is the day
That any issues should be dropped

Christmas is not about you are me
It's about sharing our love with other

Celebrating the birth of Christ
Is great, it's sharing

Jesus Christ and God are not selfish
They want this day to be about love

Who I God. God is love
Who is J. C. He is understanding and reasoning

Don't feel alone or unloved
Because you are deffently loved

Just open your heart
And let us in

Merry Christmas
God bless and
May love always be with you

You keep in step...
You walk the line...

You do what you do...
Because you're told...

But inside your heart,
it is black, hollow, and cold....

Are you brave enough to see?
Do you want to change it?

What if this whole crusade,
is only a charade....

And behind it all,
there's a price to be paid....

For the blood...
For which we dine...

Justified in the name,
of the holy and the divine....

So naive,
keep holding on to what I want to believe...

You can see,
But keep holding on and on and on and on....

Just how deep do you believe?
Can you break away to be free?

Will you chew until it bleeds?
Can you get up off your knees?

Are you brave enough to see?
Do you want to change it?

Will you bite the hand that feeds you?
Will you stay down on your knees?

can I dream, just one dream
can I get past this broken road

this broken road
that I travel for so long

which I try have tried to fix
so many times

my shoes are worn
from the lies of my life

my emotions stolen
from the selfishness of others

I stumble in my footsteps
walking through the nails

my life is now torn
which has been ripped by other

can someone tell me
is there  something I don't know

can someone tell me
is there something I must know

can someone tell me
is there something I can do

I feel my time is due
to get past this broken road

In life the expected,
and unexpected will always be...

The challenges in life,
is what sets us free....

Hurdles are hard,
which holds the mind....

Love and fate,
we can never fake.....

Friendship in life,
we should hold very dear....

There should only by tears of joy,
and never tears of pain....

I hold on only to the good,
and never the bad....

My thought are always with,
the one I can't have....

Can you see when I was a child
Can you see what goes on inside my mind

Is there a reason, is there enough time
I can only dare, to roll back the days

When you tell a lie, I know it was mine
Riding on this high, I fall to the ground

Feeling like I was shot in the head
Everything before my eyes, turns to red

I don't care to ask the question, why
Only feeling, like I am back from the dead

I can now only pretend to be, who I am not
Just give me a reason, to shake your hand

I can capture you, with a smile
As I look deep into your eyes

I will not speak, my tongue has been cut
As my ears listen for the next lie

The truth only seems to confuse me
I have never known the words of sincerity

The true meanings of words such as

I Love you
Yes dear
I care
Are you ok

I don't quite understand
because they have never been spoken to me

I am trying to figure this out
As I look inside of my trembling head
Only to find nothing new in my flesh

Wanting a new life that I can hopefully understand
I try to purge my mind any way possible

I've tried drugs, alcohol, and thought of hurting myself
Nothing seems to work and one day I felt it

Tears from above, as I spoke about my past
It was my life rewinding in my head

I played it through to the end and watched it
Over and over and over again
and edited every bad part in my life

Finding where I went wrong if life
We cut those parts out of my past

My outlook on life has know changed
It is no longer about me, how selfish I was

My eye's are know clear
My ear's now listen
I can know speak the truth

And most importantly i understand
**Sincerity

As darkness sometimes consumes me,
I find it hard for my mind to think...

With little thought control,
my mind stays on the brink...

Like walking on razors,
with only acid to drink....

My mind stays parched,
as my feet always bleed....

With visions of demons,
dancing in my head...

I can feel the earth collapsing,
from the Illuminati

And also the space ship fleets
Never ending galaxy

Galaxy's phones and TV
IPhone I Cloud I float and see

Seeing is believing that the WWThree
Plus colaps of stock markets digit3

He sees he is I am that I am
U REcover read each cover and sheet

Sheets of snow sheets and Cover code
I break grounds and stereo mode

I famously Informed Information speech

have you ever lost your keys and have them in your hand

have you ever got out the shower and forgot to rinse the shampoo out of you hair

have you ever locked your keys in the car and left it running

have you ever went shopping and forgot your wallet

have you ever called your girl friend by another girls name

have you ever drove from point a to point b and forget how you got there

have you ever drank a beer with a cigerette but in it

have you ever **** or ****** in your pants, just a little

have you ever threw up on somebody

have you ever forgot where you parked your car

have you ever had a conversation and didn't hear a word

have you ever tell someone you love them and didn't mean it

have you ever found the elf that steals one of every pair of socks, who hides your sun glasses and steals your money

have you ever blacked out from drinking

have you ever got tired of writing

I don't mind a life,
that will be kind...

I don't mind a life,
of trying to do right...

I do not mind a life,
full of love....

I do not mind a life,
that wants to help others...

I do not mind a life,
of joy and happiness....

I do not mind a life,
that has no pride....

I do not mind a life,
of forgiveness and hope....

Yet I can't picture a life,
without god....

Trapped in this world,
uttering words of no meaning.

As I have falling into a lost crack,
through this journey of my life.

Trying to find the secrets to success,
I ask myself many questions.

Life seems so mysterious to me,
where people remind me of ants.

They travel in a straight line,
seemingly knowing where there at.

Only to remind me,
that death comes easy,
even to the determined.

As I work so hard to figure my life out,
I am always let down at every turn.

Is it myself or someone else, to blame.  
For my reasoning of not understanding.

As they find excuses for everything I did wrong,
It only reminds me of what I have done right.

Is it the world who is  to blame or
is it just not my time in life.

Rain in the sunshine
A smell of fresh air

The feelings of happiness
With love and care

With eyes that behold
With a curious mind

Be that one person
Be one of a kind

Love your life
By loving others

Were all God's creatures
That means you and me

If you don't believe in God
That's OK

Just be a loving creature
That's all you must be

We all don't know him
We live content ways

Be a life giver
And continue life's ways

You
Lying
Egotistical
Manipulating
Self-centered
Deceiving
Conced­ed
*****

See ya would want to be you and don't let the door hit you in the ***.

Oh, buy the way, don't bother calling.

i was three years old when kennedy was shot
this was the first time i crid, for a man that i did not know

love me do was my favorite song from the beatles
a band i never knew

my favorite love song was
was once upon a time there was an angle

like a soft summer breeze those days are gone
and just a haze in my mind

these memerious we should never forget
the loving times of care with love

our curiosity, our feelings
of this new place

a world that we didn't know
a place we'll never forget

A good night, the best in a long time
A new friend turned me on to an old favorite
Nothing better than a dealer who's high
Be high, convince them to buy

What's my drug of choice?
Well, what have you got?
I don't go broke
And I do it a lot

Seems so sick to the hypocrite norm
Running their boring drills
But we are an elite race of our own
The stoners, junkies, and freaks

Are you happy? I am, man.

Content and fully aware
Money, status, nothing to me
'Cause your life is empty and bare

You can't understand a user's mind
But try, with your books and degrees
If you let yourself go and opened your mind
I'll bet you'd be doing like me
And it ain't so bad

!

Both man and women get caught in the heat of the moment
When out and something sparks the fire they can't wait to get home

They touch each other as they drive home;
The mans words are we'll make love all night long
The girls ****** desires rises above the norm

As they get home, kissing and touching, ripping their clothes off
She says slow take your time enjoy this feeling bring me pleasure
He says, you know it baby, with only one thing on his mind

As they get caught up in the heat of the moment
She want's to be touch, caressed, kissed and pampered
He agrees, but wants only one thing, it's always in an minute

She thinks after hours, they can cuddle, spoon and talk
He thinks about other things and wants no part of it

After only few minutes, he says he's sorry, give me five minutes
She wonders, with still a small bit of excitement

He has to, of course use the bathroom
She has seen this so many times before

5 minutes go by, and he pops back in with a sandwich and soda
She then says no way baby, come back to bed

He reply's, as soon as ESPN is over, I promise
She is not dumb, she knows that ESPN is a 24 hour sports channel

As the drama thickens,
people like to listen..

A plot has been drawn,
which each assume their own...

A storeies has been told,
that will soon grow old.....

People love the drama,
and love to see hurt....

They should worry about,
their own lives....

Because jeliousy and envy,
is their only reason for hurt.

lies and tales that can't be told
the truth that I hold can't be sold

the things that I see
the things that I know
the people I see
the places I go

lo and behold
the truth and the lies

the people we hurt
the people that die

the people we love
the people that cry

the one's who care
the one's who are there

the one's we keep
the ones we leave

the one's that help
the one's that don't

the friend's we find
are the friend's we keep

As you think your playing me....
I'm the one playing you....

To a fiddle tune,
that will mesmarize you.....

You make a move to benifit you....
I'll have you reach for a star and you wont have a clue...

It is a game,
so what's your next move...

You think you have options,
but it's always my move....

If it's something you want....
I'll throw you some change...

If it's feelings you seek,
I'm not that meek....

They'll give you a smile,
a kiss and a hug....

It takes more then that,
to get to my heart....

I'll play the game.....
I'll play the part...

I was the one in control,
right from the start....

are emotions, feelings

or is feelings, emotions

either way, quit playing with them