Cigarette after cigarette You smoke until you choke Grinding **** and sparking bowls Does it not get old? I fell in love with a chimney As wonderful as he may be But I question how much more I can take of this Before brushing off the smoke To leave
I want to get drunk one last time Just to know what I would say Intoxicated words come out so much easier Than trying it the sober way I want to tell him I love him I want to tell the truth I want to feel like everything is acceptable I want to talk to you I want an excuse to come clean About everything I have felt From love to hate to anger to lust to that time I wanted to **** myself I want to share things I am too scared to share I want to hold him tight I want to thank you for breaking my heart I want to share incredibly sad things in the dead of the night I want to be brave I want to talk a lot I want someone to listen And not just laugh it off I want to get drunk So I can be who I truly am But alcohol is bad And I am clean So I will filter these thoughts for now