Together

Means both of you

//

You are not together

If the TOGETHERNESS

only exists in the mind of One Person

When you eat more than you said you would
Forgive yourself
When you accidentally text the boy who broke you
End the conversation
When you get too drunk and kiss someone
Don’t be ashamed
When the pain becomes too great and you slip up with the blade
clean the blood
bandage the wound
and then call your mom.

We are all human

We all mess up

And we can all be redeemed.

I can't help but wonder
if I will always belong to my emotions.

How long will I be
a prisoner of my depression?
and at the mercy of my anxiety?
How many days will my thoughts
scream behind clenched teeth
and ring deep in my ears?

When will freedom come?
Will I ever know peace?

This war raging within my skull
seems to be killing me.

she will tell you that
rejection tastes of
saltwater and stale smoke

it looks like mascara rivers
running towards her throat

it sounds just like deafening silence
of a phone that doesn't ring

it feels just like a stab wound,
a never ending sting.

She's used to the emotions
used to all the lies.

She's used to all the fake smile a
from even faker guys.

rejection gets not easier
as time progresses on,
but boils up from within her
until she's not alone.