I met this girl
This girl is sweet
An kind
And just
Like
Me
I never new
I needed
Her
Until I had
Her
Now I know
I can't live without
Her

Say goodnight,
as I lay awake taking my last breath.

Remove this noose from my neck
and replace it with a tourniquet,
for i do not wish to die,
but I do this to be numb.

Remove this noose from my neck
and replace it with a tourniquet.

I strike a match
Light the fire
Not-
to watch the world burn
Rather-
to finally feel some warmth.

I play in the ashes
Footprints left behind
Not-
to get somewhere important
Rather-
to leave something I'll be remembered by

I say my prayers
Before I sleep
Not-
to get any sort of help
Rather-
to  make the world a better place

The ants feasted upon the rotting fruit
As the Bluebirds soared high
Sweet Turtledoves and Monarch butterflies
could be seen in the fermenting toxicity
and I thumbed through the *******
curiously
In fear and breathless
With a sickening touch of insanity

There where never monsters in the closet
or under my bed, the only monsters
that I face are the ones that come at out in
the dark with the soft voices in my head.

The voices fight a battle between the
past and the present, the fears of my past
laughing as my future struggles to crawl
towards the dim light just like an infant.

But unlike the innocent infant I will
never reach the prize unless I learn to
face the shadows that claw my back carving
scars that I must hide with layers of lies.