i'll love you like
its the first time I'm tasting chocolate.
like I've never felt something so sweet
and perfect on my tongue.

i'll love you like
its the last day of school
like we're finally free
laughing and yelling and wild.

i'll love you like
the feeling at the end of the night
like ill never be so alive
or full of passion.

i'll love you like
its the first snowfall of winter
like the flakes that are so unique,
each one so special.

i'll love you like
its the fourth of july
like my favorite holiday is never gonna end
and your lips feel like fireworks.

and i'll love you like
theres nothing else,
no one else
now
or
ever.

if only you would just
let me.

I'm sorry
that the way you looked at me
made me like you
from the very beginning.
I'm sorry that he was in the back
of my mind when you touched
my back so softly.
I'm sorry that i was too stubborn
too afraid
too stupid
to see everything you were,
everything you could be.
I'm sorry for that night that i can't take back,
the 15 minutes in the bathroom
that i wish i could erase.
I'm sorry for being the kind
of person who could just
fall out of
love
and then fall into a new love
with you.
I'm sorry that i couldn't
admit that  
i love you
until it was too late.
and I'm sorry that i still haven't stopped
trying to win you back
and keep causing you
so much
pain.

But most of all
I'm sorry
for thinking of new things
to be sorry for

every single day.

don't think

don't feel

don't stop.

living on the edges
of glorious destruction
and violent beauty
until it
all
falls
apart.


I've spent my whole life breaking things

but most of all myself.

And on 12/12/12
i wished
for you.
and every
11:11 since.