I pity you,
For how you must suffer,
completely blind
That you lost a good lover.

You and I
Can never align
My spirit is too bright
Yours to bleak
Breathing the same air as you
I sink

Blame, blame, blame
Mr. perfect don't you see?
You are nothing but a fool,
A loser,
And really a laugh at to think i gave you any time in the sheets.
Poke and jab at me
Your words so sharp.
You think manipulating others is art.

You once had a gift
But the gods took back your power
Your soul couldn't wait to devour
Your soul
So dark
Id give every last star
To never had stepped foot into
Your empty heart.

Your aura,
Grey and weak.
So you must cast your shadow
Roar the greatest roar
So no one sees
That little boy in the mirror
Hiding underneath,

What does he think?

What does he need?

What is he missing?

You are the biggest mind game,
And my biggest regret.
If i had one,
Id wished id have never met you,
And id still be who i used to be

Anyone that loves you,
Is on a scary path.
You dont know what love is
Your a user,
An abuser,
Masked as some spiritual computer
But truly the delusional intruder.

i’ve decided,
acted on it.
Now i feel my old selves revolting back.
Dont’ feed in
To the hungry voice within - i
It pretends to be ur friend

Just like you.
Was it all to get some jet fuel?

I saw your soul.
I saw your fears,
I see you in every way i can, dear.

Now the musical notes
Clash and clink
Never thought
Itd feel so bleak..

Here comes the rest of the week,
Im tired of carrying the weight
Of not letting this ship sink

So over this fight
Done staying up all night
Telling myself this is alright
But this is my life.
A purpose to obtain
Yet i spend my days hiding away
Smoking away my pain
And putting on a fake face

Each hit i take
Feels like a bit of relief
With a smack in the face.

How could i be so weak?
How could i let a chemical control me?
Is it just the rush i seek?

It helps me get through the week,
But when its time to lie to asleep,
I cant help but feel all the shame
Ive buried underneath.

Answers, i seek.
I don’t want to treat myself this mean.
Through the things i eat,
And how i cope to get through my misery
Discipline, i need.

How could i be so weak?
I let a chemical
Such as nicotine
Control me.

I fade away
Into the blank space
I close my eyes,
And tell myself,
Just one more day.

I am not a sheep.
Fear and doubt have expanded within my psyche
And taken over what I truly believe.

I know I have the key.
All i need to do is one thing,
And the rest will fall into place.
Trust and believe,
The universe is listening.

My guides are waiting for me
To reclaim
The parts of me that im scared to let free.
My power,
My talent,
And my frequency.
It needs releashed.
The circle is not complete
If I keep my gifts just for me.

I must master self control
To do what is good for the soul.
So i can be free,
And truly be me.
Im halfway there,
But im gripping so tight to this pole
Why do i think i cant let go?
It feels like if i do,
The ocean will swallow me whole.
But really, home is where ill go.
The home thats been waiting for me
To grab the key
And step in

I will be my friend.
Care for myself
Reach ultimate zen
Patience is running thin

My life is not a game.
I am sick and tired
Of this recipe
That only ends
To a road of obsolete.

Nobody knows, the smile i put on is just a show.
If i can do anything,
Is to make me proud of me.

I know what i need to do.
Decide and follow through.
Maybe you wont even be so blue.
Youll be glad that you took the chance
On taking care of yourself again.

Some people, dont get that chance.
You dont need to live life so fast.
Trust and believe,
There is more than you think..
Rooting for you.
On your team.

– be the one who says they can.
Be the one who outlasts and adapts
Be the one to make people believe,
But first,
I must believe in me

Aligned
I am not out of time
I will recover
From all thats happened to me,
From this body that feels like its deteriorating.


I will  commit
Embody self discipline
And show me,
That i AM on my own team.
No more working against me..

-klarity

My old friend, Ive missed you.
You always provide such a release,
Somehow when I write,
I provide exactly
What I need.

Underneath,
My teeth.
Underneath all these layers
Of clothes,
Fake smiles,
Make up,
And tiny voices.

There’s a hand,
That says; it’s okay
To start again.

I am your friend.
No one can take writing from you.
Write from your heart,
And let it flow down the river
Let it pour out of your fragile hands
Onto the blank paper.

It’s your truth,
And it’s all beautiful.

You can always pick up a pen
And start where you left off.

You know you're a writer.
You will always come back.

Everywhere I turn
Is a memory I have to erase
An outline
I can no longer trace.

So i can enjoy life again
Without you
Stained all over it
Covered in your ink
Burned in my brain
Memories, i wish i could erase.
Itd be the easy way,
Then i’d have no pain.

Your ink bled into me
And washed out any pigment i had left.

I see flashbacks all over this town.
The places I go when I want to reflect,
Are places we had some wild ***
Places we talked for hours
And lost ourselves in
Eachother
Uncovering our purpose
Reminding you that you aren't worthless.
While you held me in your arms
And talked about quantum physics
That was so comforting
You stimulated my mind and my body
That's all I ever needed.
I was at ease,
Could have been eternity.

i also remember,
what our days would progress to be.
Your mind
turned against me.
You just want to be mr. teach

Always leaving in disdain
Feeling empty,
Feeling forbidden,
Feeling like I gave you another chunk.
You chucked it up to the dust,
And I called it love.

I’ve given you more of me than i have to myself,
You know im one of a kind,
You wont see me going down the conveyer belt.
This love is rare,
I see the good in you, and the bad too,
I actually see you
And I chose to love you.
Through and through.
Its all I know how to do.

So unhappily happy when im with you.
I had no end goal.
I became so addicted to you,
Even with all the mental abuse.

But when I leave,
i start to feel free.
You only see a glimpse of me.
But I'm still haunted by memories
What we could be

I gave so much,
All you did was take,
Spread hate,
Get irate,
Get me addicted,
And become vindictive.

Now  when I go to my safe place,
The sand in my feet,
The breeze in my hair,
The sun kissing my skin
The veil feels thin

All I see is you here.
Spread across the water
Spread across the sand,
the dirt,
and the trees.
I see a million memories at this creek,
Even though you have always been so mean to thee.

You have bled over everything,

Washed out any pigment I had left.
I just want to get back to me.
The one that Dances,
Laugh,
& Sings.

A lot of unlearning,
And reprogramming,
needs to take place
I'm not in a race,
just need to slow my pace,
thoughtwho knows how many days
It'll take.

Steady, I pave ahead
Purpose, I'm all in.
Walk the path with ease,
With grace.
I know I can't be replaced.
How could i ever forget you?
You will probably never deal with this,
Because you were never there.
Trapped in stagnant air.

I guess i was just someone there.
Someone to talk to,
did you ever try to look underneath?
when you look into my eyes..
your reflection is all you see.

But i see now.
How clear it is to me,
i gave you so much of my time.
You just took from me,
and left me empty.

a lesson, is what you are now.
You taught me,
No matter how much trying,
we are not meant to be.

you were just temporary.
Im sorry for you,
cause youll never find anyone like me.


-klarity

I want to feel the excitement
Of a new day coming

I want to step outside my comfort zone
And be who i know i can.
Who i know i am.
But here i go
Holding myself back
From growth.
I walk down the same path
Taking the same road
I know each and every turn
And i feel at ease
knowing the predictability.

i dont take a leap
its hard for me to believe that id land on my feet

I want out of these restraints
That my mind has placed..
Its like a spell
That i can never be truly at peace
That i always want what's not good for me.
The truth is,
I don't know what will set me free.

I say,
Just be.
But i'm not even sure how to just
Sit
and be with me

And then, she woke up.
She decided,
This isnt what she wants.

She then calmly packed her things
Silently dwelled in leaving another home
Uh oh
Time to begin again
And said goodbye to the stagnance,
And with each step forward she gained a little bit of  valiance?
strength,
Confidence
In each step.
She remembers who she is.
Pain is there,
Tears at the waterfront,

But still,
Shes empowered in stepping back into her power.
On to the path of self discovery,
Self love,
And connection.

Strength is never easy.
She drives her tiny car jampacked in silence,
And silently starts to cry
The whimpers turn to gasps
No one there to stop them

Bawling so hard she cant see the road,
She doesn't know where shes going,
She doesn't know where home is,
But still,
She continues.
To go.

She has to do it for herself,
If she doesn't, no one will.

Dont judge yourself for getting lost in the tides
We all get lost in the waves
But there was too many crashes
For how short the waves were.
Doesnt matter about fair.

And today,
I realized what is, is.
And it isnt what i want.
With that, i say thankyou
But the new me is ready to sprout.
No time to shout
This ***** is out

Dont worry too much about right now,
And the future.
You will make the decision you were meant to make with the precision

Each step,
For yourself
Filled with love
Strength
And pride.

Her feet dragged,
Her hair messy, puffy eyes,
Unsure of what is next
But still,
She walks.

She continues,
No matter what.

For herself,

And that my dear, is love.

The love you deserve.

Nobody can leave for you,
Nobody knows truly how you feel,
Except you.

Love yourself like you want to be loved.

It isnt easy,
But neither is life.

You are love.
In your pain,
In your joy,
In your madness.

Is when your most beautiful.
Show up for anyone?
Show up for you

Show you what love really is.

The rest can undo.
Make your dreams come true.