Under the rain we ran and we splashed
Like we were children again
The clouds were dark
And there was no sun
But you shined your brightest then
Your eyes so blue
They capture you
And never let you go
They watched as I took your hand
And placed it near my heart
I knew you could understand
Kiss they said
And my cheeks glowed red
Even though I've kissed you before
Kiss they said
And I turned my head
And began to blush more
It was in the moment
I decided to do it
I pulled you in
And the kiss began
And ****, I wish it didn't end

Harsh and bitter diatribe
Broken deep alone inside
A sad story to call our own
Hiding in this lonesome home
Crying when no ones around
Waiting but im never found
In my eyes my pain is clear
Screaming loud but no one hears
Help me I am falling fast
In the present and in the past
But no one has time to see
My growing flaming agony

If you hate me just say it
I wish you could see
That you're slowly
So slowly killing me
Dying with every wasted breath
Destroyed by every criticism that you spit out
I hate you so much sometimes
I want to leave
But Im stuck
In your claws
Sooner or later we all leave
Sooner than later you'll break down
Soon you'll have no one around
You push us all so far away
You tuck us away in a box of your own
Imprisoned
After I help you
After I give to you
I gave to you when I had nothing!
This time it's different
Don't look for me
When you need help

It was a gloomy Saturday night
As I walked the staircase to hell
All rage and ready to fight
Too bad this angel fell

A book in the corner full of sins
A trail of people left drained
A closet full of different skins
So I could switch mine if it got stained

A path surronded by flames
A throne fit for a queen
Curtains woven by shame
I was in a mood to be mean

A smirk firmly in place
No regret left inside
Not a tear on my face
I didn't want to hide

I stood before hells jury
Fairness was not insight
No one could stand before his fury
But I was a bomb strapped by might

The gavel slams, Im guilty
Of course it's true
I was on the brink of insanity,
where I want to be

But no chains
No bars
No cage
Would hold me

This was my throne
I would make this my home
So with a grin on my face
I took my place
And I started a riot in hell

All alone in an empty room
Nothing left but the memories of when I had my best frIend
I don't know how we ended up here
I don't know but it's never been so clear
We made a mistake, dear.
And I see the broken glass in front of me
I see your shadow hangIng over me
And your face, I can see

Through the trees
I wIll find you;
I wIll heal the ruins left inside you
Cause I'm stIll here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now
I'm still here breathIng now
UntIl I'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees

I remember how we used to talk
About the places we would go when we were off
And all that we were gonna find.
And I remember our seeds grow
And how you cried when you saw
The first leaves show.
The love was pouring from your eyes.

So can you see
The branches hanging over me?
Can you see
The love you left inside of me?
In my face
Can you see?

Through the trees
I will find you;
I will heal the ruins left inside you.
Cause I'm still here breathing now
I'm still here breathing now
I'm still here breathing now
Until I'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees.

Cause you're not coming back
And you're not coming back
You're not coming back...
You're not coming back...

Take my breath as your own
Take my eyes to guide you home

Cause I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here...

But you're not coming back.
And you're not coming back.
Cause you're not coming back
Until I'm set free
Go quiet through the trees.

Thunder crackles in the sky
Fleeting pictures of lightning flash when I close my eyes
The rain fights against the glass
I lay quiet waiting for the weather to **pass

I don't want to be the victim anymore
I want to be the hero

She slumps against the bar,
her head pressed to the sticky surface.
She sits at the table of broken hearts, and dreams.
She pours her sorrows in a shot glass too full,
and swears she'll never go back again.

He sits with a wounded heart,
drenched in a vague memory of what was happiness.
He fills his gut with the burning liquid he calls home,
and swears that life is better alone.

They sit with one dream or another,
shattered in a pile of wasted energy on the floor.
A hopeless beginning with no end,
that always began with "what if?,"
that exist with one closing door.

It doesn't matter,
when the lights go out,
and the spotlight moves on,
leaving you in a windowless room of smog,
no mind to what might be on the outside.

All there is, is the comfort of the wine that numbs the sting.
And a new dream of what the shattered one might bring.

On this road I travel
I kick the gravel
Hands deep in my coats pockets
My eyes moist with tears, flooding their sockets
It was a sad day to walk
In the sky above soared a hawk
And his cries a soft melody
That slowly comforted me
I don't know what did me in
Maybe it was the constant push to win
Even the trees glared at me now
As their old trunks sunk in, began to bow
My heart softly would quake
As my shoulders would quietly shake
I had given up my name
And pretended this had been a game
Oh foolish me!
How I couldn't see
It was my own fault that I walk here today
It wasn't right, for losers to stay

Trembling beneath the weight of these words
These words that entice these broken bones
To sway to the memories reincarnating in my mind
This melody that brings these frozen tears to my eyes
So they hang by the thin threads
Crystallizing in my soul
Frost bitten by my breath

This song that brings me back to my youth
Brings me back into that careless mirage
Has me floating in my liquid dreams
Spiraling off every syllable

I crescendo with the feverish voice pouring into my ears
Cry with the beauty,
Cry for being homesick of those years
Where I was blissfully unaware
With these words heavy underneath my skin

Swimming through the river of forgetfulness,
But my mind clings to my memories
The water ebbs and caresses my body
Lulls me to let go
But as I try my soul struggles
A soft pulling eases me away
In the shadows I lay,
Something I was nudging at
Let lose to pillage my mind
I don't want to let go
I want to remain what I used to be
Not much, but still a person
Still me
Slowly time wins, my grip fails to hold on
My soul fades
I wander
I lose my way in the thick smoke
And I forget,
I reach land and pull my body from,
The Torrent Of forgetfulness

Along the trees that sit in a twisted path carved out just for me
The wind blows a big gust of air realesed from lungs that rustle the leaves
The stars overhead gently blanket the tree tops and give a brilliant sight
And then I hear them, their strong howls break out beneath the moonlight
And I smile as I walk the twisted path carved just for me
Looking and observing the blur of thick colored coats I can see
The thunder of their paws slapping the earths bed
It echoes, reverberates inside of my head
Oh my thunderous brothers howl the songs you sing
Howl, please howl and bring that joy to my heart you bring

Young I am,
Gifted I am as well,
Negative remarks ,
Leave marks, but they fade,
Forgotten in time,
Young I am,
Strong I am as well,
I hold the world on my shoulders,
Young I am,
Caring I am as well,
I wipe away your pain with my healing fingers,
Young I am,
Naive I am as well,
I will give my heart to the wrong man,
Young I am,
Wrong I will be too,
But not always,
Dont always assume
Young I am,
But wise I am as well,
Smart like the cat,
Quick and fierce

At the top of the cliff,
Feet at the edge,
The salty breeze in my hair,
One hand grips the flower,
A brilliant red,
The one you gave me,
It's cold,
My feet are bare,
My hair loose around my shoulders,
My eyes closed,
I remember every moment,
You and me,
Laying on the beaches cool sand,
The water ebbing,
You said you loved me,
You lied,
I said I love you too,
I meant it,
Squeezing my eyes tighter ,
To stop the tears ready to explode from captivity,
The pain in me,
To much to bare,
Blades against skin,
A new pain,
Sweet release from yours,
But when that doesn't help,
And nobody listens,
What choice do I have,
A deep breath,
Lungs full of the oceans air,
I open my eyes,
Spread my arms,
And leap,
One last thought,
* I'll miss you