I am alone, beneath the skin of a smiling girl.

I am weak, underneath the tough words.

I cry when the doors are closed

and I lie when I'm vulnerable.

I'm scared of the entire world

I hate to know pains cold fingers

they linger their frozen touch on my heart

and it's there I know I am falling apart.

I break like glass thats already cracked

shattered asunder, just like that.

Sometimes, while my lips quiver and my eyes shine with unshed tears

I think about what there isn't to fear.

What is the reward of this wayward place

Ridden in hate

I cant walk a mile in anyone else's shoes

I haven't even ran in my own

My heart cant bare the thought

Of stepping outside it's home

Oh yes, it's been broken

And yes, it's done wrong,

but that imperfect heart

that broken, hurt swollen heart is strong.

I placed my heart inside a box of steel
so that I would never feel.
I locked up all the chains,
so that I wouldn't feel pain.

I broke the key,
so no one could get to me.
I hid it deep inside,
where no one would find.

But you hold the map to my heart,
and the key that broke it open.
I should've known
I wouldn't be left alone.

The sun doesn't shine anymore,
it's been dark for a while.
When the day looks like it might be good,
the weight comes crashing down.
Sending me spinning in this hell,
with my heart stapled to my sleeve.
The voice in the back of my head is yelling,
telling me when it looks better it'll only get worse.
Tragidy everywhere that I look,
like torn pages from a book
where is the end?
Not at the end of a rope
or the last drop of hope,
it can't be that last single tear
or when you are numb without fear.
When you're missing ignorant bliss
back when  you didn't feel like this.
When you keep yourself up at night,
thinking of all the things that aren't right.
Back when the sky was always blue,
and you didn't question everything you do.
When your body wasn't sore from working tell you're dead,
back when you weren't scared but fearless instead.
Where have the days gone?
When everything in the world didn't feel so wrong.

I had forgotten
The way it felt to smile
I let the memory fade
I haven't felt anything for a while
But worst of all I felt sorry for myself
This is what brought me back from the dead
I had forgotten to breathe
And had suffocated in my self pity instead
I had forgotten that I am not the only one
To feel lost and out of place
I think I forgot
That this life isn't a race
I let it slip my mind
That we're all in this together
That we stand as one
And suffer the same weather
I know I forgot the good things in life
Because I focus so much on the pain
I forgot about the sun
Because I always watched the rain
I lost myself in the dark
When the light was right behind me
I forgot to open my eyes
So I could see
Until I felt it inside
The music filled my soul
I felt it fill me up
Making me whole
I think I spent all this time sleeping
And now I've woken up
I forgot about fighting
And spent so much time giving up
Until I found the surface
Now I can breathe