Days going by slowly,
Passing by the seconds as the clock ticks lonely
Sitting here at this empty table
Watching the clock
The broken hearts
And failed apologies
In the middle
Chairs in disarray
Angry words left behind
The only kind words are mine
Trying to reconnect a broken family
One that used to be so strong
Now there's only accusations and wrong
Like a war battling in my living room
The damage left cant be swept up by my broom
And I just sit here and watch the clock
As time goes by
We sit here screaming wasting our time
And I'm just praying that we're going to be fine
But that wish is only mine

A soft flutter in the top of the trees
Beauty as the flowers are swarm by bees
Counting the cracks on the crooked ground
Dodging the birds as I spin around
Every sound slowly comes alive
Frantically the squirrels dig up nuts they use to survive
Gorgeous patches of fine green grass
Hastily jumping to avoid the broken glass
I take in the smell of the spring
Just listening to the birds sing
Kind eyes from passing friends
Loving embraces you never want to end
Meeting the soft sunrays with a warm  smile
Never closing my eyes, just watching the sun a while
Over the hill I quietly lay
Patiently waiting for the vanishing sunrays
Quiter the world seems to fall
Resting their heads in the treetops so tall
Slowly the sun sinks lower
Towering for a minute the sun grows slower
Until it fades into dark blue skies
Vanishing before my green watching eyes
When the last glimpse of the golden globe disappears
X-rays of the stars fall leering
Zenith well passed in the open grass of the clearing

I count the scars..
The ones I try to hide
The ones I am so ashamed of
The new ones and the old ones
Thinking how easy it all could end
How easy I could shut off the dreams
The ones I have every night haunting my sleep
The ones that make me scared to close my eyes
In fear that I'll see his face
I know it's already over
I'm counting the days
To be brave enough to do it
To fall off the edge I'm dangling
I'm so alone..
People all around, but I can't scream
In fear that I'll drag them down with the rest,
Of my victims
I'm already so cold inside
I long to feel the warmth
And I know I'm hurting everyone around me
But I'm blinded and I can't see
The light that used to be there
I just sit drowning in my pain
Seeping into me and spreading like venom
I keep messing up, making a new mess
There's a trail that I'm so frantic to clean up
But the past has been written
I cannot rewrite the ink
It soaks into my skin
There reminding me all the time
Screaming at me
What purpose is there for a failure?
For someone so damaged?
So dark, and broken?
I can't see it
And I can't feel it
I think I've lost what matters most...
My faith

Walk the aisle
On my way to death
Flowers hanging above the alter
Marry the truth
Divorce the lies
Hands holding a single black rose
The thorns twisted and sharp
The audience is dead
Watching me as I turn and bow
The groom lies in a crumpled pile
Drained of blood
The white carpet beneath him wet
With his last bit of life essence
Pushing back the black veil before my face
I whisper I do into grooms ear and smile
A wicked wedding
For a wicked bride

Today I wrote a perfect song
The lyrics just right, not a beat wrong
I sang it until I could sing no more
I sat there starring at the carpeted floor
Thinking how is it possible to feel so right
How is it possible to not have to fight
Just sit here in peace, and sing my song
The one with the lyrics, and no beat wrong
The piano it rang, though the chords are unknown
It's better that way, to me more beauty is shown
That song is so good, I want to sing it to the world
When I sing it, it feels like I'm in space and I'm being hurled
Flying and diving, ducking and spinning
This time, I'm surprised, but truly I am winning