Getting obsessive about your weight?
"Your disgusting." She said to the mirror.
I was tortured everyday  by food.
Memories never die.
I'm not  pretty.
Not only am i fat, i'm stupid too.
So i don't eat.
"Fat pig! Stop eating!"
Fattening.
Memories never die.
I cannot  be "normal."
I truly hate myself.
"Eating makes me feel worse."
I just don't want to be fat anymore.
Thinner and Thinner.
Skin and Bones.
Feasting on  hunger.
My sadness had  returned.
Fat, fat, fat.
My thighs are also too big.
There's nothing left but to  die...
Little parallel slashes.
Does my stomach stick out.?
Do my thighs jiggle.?
Cut,starve, cut, starve, cut.
"******* cow! Greedy pig!"
The violent hatred of  fat.
I'm  tired  of me.
Have you  eaten?
Actively suicidal.
Eating disorders are addictive.
I'd rather starve.
I just don't feel  like eating.
Silent tears.
I know i'm ugly, Don't look  at me.
And i began to  cry again.
"You look like a pig."
I  have scars.
Eating less and less.
Don't let me get  fat.
Mirrors can **** and talk.
"Who's the fat freak?"
Calories scare me.
"Stop stuffing your fat face."
I  can't believe i'm so fat.
Loneliness, Depression, Anxiety.
"Thinner, it said. You need to get thinner."
Horrible dreams.
She killed herself deliberately.
It's  a secret i plan to take to my grave.
Low self-esteem.
I feel so heavy.
I feel so huge and bloated.
Sad and Tired.
She cried about what she had just eaten.
"Your fat jiggles!"
Fat body.
Decrease my  food intake.
I can't eat it.
She doesn't eat.

Your favorite hug,
Your favorite mall  date,
Your favorite night,
Your favorite cuddle,
Your favorite kiss,
Your favorite Girlfriend.
(:

Such luscious lips, with pinkish glow!
She's beautiful.

*Her chapped lips,  faucet like,
cascade only words of kindness..
She's beautiful.

Such pretty,alluring eyes!
She's beautiful.

Her heavy-lidded eyes : a pair of lenses
capturing only great sharp shots,
they see clearly only the good in people..
They never despise.
She's beautiful.

Such a lovely, curvaceous figure!
She's beautiful.

Within the slim figure,  is a soul
who'll share her food with the hungry,
even if it means she'll be left with nothing
for dinner.
She's beautiful.

*Beauty is only skin deep..

I know you told me not to fall in love with you
Because you think you're
to
      broken

Too late
I love everything about you
I love your flaws
And all our 3 am calls
I love our devotion
Filled with heart and emotion

But simply, your presence
You make the world a better place
At least mine
Not a day goes by that I don't wish
you were mine

I know you told me not to fall in love with you
because you think you're
to
       broken
But I cant stay away
Youre simply my world
*and that's that

Darling please* don't leave because you think im to clingy
The thing is, People have left me
People have broke me

Darling please* don't leave because you think I get too attached
I never mean to get like that
People have left me *despondent
Your all that I ever needed and wanted

So darling, im down on my knees begging
Hoping and praying
That you don't leave for someone less
That's not such a mess
As I address

i may look like i'm something on the outside,  but deep down inside i'm absolutely nothing

i'm unfortunately not worth it and i never will be.

Old Gray: My Life With You, My Life Without You
Tigers Jaw: Teen Rocket
The World Is A Beautiful Place: Heartbeat In The Brain
The Story So Far: Navy Blue
Counterparts: Decay
Foxing: Inuit
Karen O: The Moon Song
Have Mercy: Living Dead
Modern Baseball: Pothole
Moose Blood: Gum
The Wonder Years: Madelyn

...and we'll kiss and laugh and talk about how we're just small specks of dust in the universe wondering what our purpose is.

my body is sober
and yours is not
my lungs aren't dead yet
but yours are close
will i ever see you again
yeah, probably not
did i ever love you?
i don't think so

we've trashed the house and now we've trashed our lives

we threw a tv out the window
left the trash can piled up
2 strangers
are sleeping on my couch
there's broken beer bottles on the top of my roof
and now there's a broken heart inside my chest