just one cut but it wont count
two shots to keep my lunch down
a couple pills and i hope i drown

This is not to say that i don't still look at peoples wrists or that i finally know why i'm here
its not to say that i like that you have scars on your wrists but that i find comfort in knowing that you won't judge me because you understand what it feels like to be attacked by your thoughts and have them wreak havoc on parts of you that only come out when the moon does and how sometimes you lie to your friends because you know they care but you tell yourself they don't
because it makes you feel better without feeling too good
in the sense that you know sadness is an addictive trait and you know better than to let it consume you but you let it anyway because it makes you feel more human
and this is to say i know that you wont judge me when i say even after all the warmth i still prefer the rain over the sunlight.

One thing you did teach me, Even if you promise me a forever a million times, it's not true.

its crazy
the adults dont see
two years ago
we were all happy as could be
its crazy
the adults dont see
two years have gone by
and were all ready to die
its crazy
the adults dont see
how hard we really try
its crazy
the adults dont see
they just believe its a phase
but the fact that these feelings
have become the norm
is killing our society
its crazy
the adults dont see
how happy we really want to be

i hear
the beat of my hollow heart
i see
the fake smile plastered on my face
i feel
the watering of my eyes
i need
worth
i want
love

if you're scared, just keep your eyes on me.

I could be perfect, you know.