Echo in a shadow
Grey in the depths
Eclipse to the sun
Golden lining
The means to an end

She moves the sea with grace
Choreographs its tides
Like a melody she plays
The waves that recede
The ones that grow in hope
On a boat rests the last pearl

The moon returns
An adytum for me
Its haunting beams
So softly speak
Whispering a gentle promise
To hide and caress

Do you remember the nights of screaming cries
Of pleas to dissolve within those sheets
Destructive thoughts that felt like home
When dawn broke
It cracked the sky
Marking an eternity passed
I hate the light
The break of day
Its promise never as sweet
For it reveals all I am
So rich in sin

Without hope to forever live
Within that darkened sky
In gentle night and moon's dark guise
The day breaks as it always does
Staring into the eyes of the sun
My gaze is stuck as it speaks my sins
I am blinded by the unveiled truth
Forever to live within the darkness  
Without the burden of my soul

I still remember the planes of your face
The detail in your eyes
The warmth of you provided
On those cool August nights

The edge of your hatred
Still presses against my heart
And I will continue to lay restless
While I fall apart

I crave your taste
Still picking up your scent
Your golden eyes glistening
Still cast their spell

I'll sit here sober-minded
Rotting in my bed
Empty glass of ice
In my trembling hands
Until that honey warm liquid
Trickles down my throat

An addict to your being
A slave to your form
Oh Sweetening pleasure
Grace me with your presence
Take away this reality
That's killing me
Worse than your poison

*edited 2012

The sadness comes relentlessly, like the storms none of us can control
The darkness a hurricane destroying all in its path
My emotions, thoughts, ambitions and dreams left frayed bits of dampened timber
the days it takes to repair all that has been left behind causes the loss of motivation
A community cannot be built , thus happiness cannot be restored in my life
Even on the brightest of days houses are left half torn, half safe
Cars overturned and mailboxes in fields where crops once grew
The efforts are useless, nothing can be repaired because
There is always a hurricane on the horizon
Ready to damage all that has been replaced

I've lived in shards
You can see the stories
Within these scars
They sink so deep
Like that alcoholic sleep

The one you fall into
When you drown
Drink more sweet Rose
Drink that whiskey down

They are calling
Those demons again
At such a cost their medicine is priced
"Drink with us!
Come ruin your life!"

I have made a mockery
Of what is me
In that gin-soaked reality
It strikes my life in such a way
Funny thing is,
I'll be drinking today!