I keep telling myself I don't Love
I try to tell myself I don't care
Because the last time I tried, It hurt like hell
I feel like you don't love me, or love means
different things to everyone
But my idea of love is eternal, faithful,
caring and true, and I haven't found that in you
This just leaves me with a sour taste
A confusing waste of time,
Never knowing what truly means to be loved
I guess even when you say so, it feels like a lie
To me love is an action, a verb,
Not a word you throw out when you're bored
It feels like love doesn't exist anymore

I never lied to you, I showed you my true self
I never covered up any skeletons
You said you love me, but you went away,
I don't blame you, I never asked you to stay
Did you ever wonder what It would do to me?
When you said you'd calm my fears,
I trusted you to be there for me
I wont betray you , if that's what you're afraid of
But you never gave me a chance to show you
what I'm made of
I guess all I'm saying is goodbye,
I remember all those things that you said
And I just wish you would explain
If you have someone else, I hope you're happy
And actually keep your promises
I wish you well, don't get me wrong,
But I would of liked to hear your honesty all along
Not some fairy tale story that didn't amount
to nothing at all

Why Do I count the days that you ran away,
Did you know you took a piece of my heart?
Why do I remember your steps as if it was yesterday?
And years have passed away
I hated the last time, you had nothing to say
Not saying "I love you", instead "I'm doing great"
I don't understand this feeling you don't deserve
And you don't desire for me to demostrate
I don't get it but I still think about you
I know I could never be with you
But I can't help to think If she's with you
I opened up my heart and it felt like
It meant nothing and was worth nothing
Why can I just remember you like the thief
you are, instead I dream of you as the love I lost
And wanted with all my heart
Maybe, Im in love with my sorrow
with the could of's and the should of's
and never appreciate tomorrows
Maybe love is all part of a game,
We don't know we're being played until we've lost
Maybe, it was never meant to be
And I wish you never know this
that I cry for you, cause I can't forgive myself
for feeling this love that never existed in you

No matter what I do to make you happy
You always make me feel ******
Even when It isnt my job to make you feel safe
I wish I wasn't born faithless
Maybe I learned that from you as well
It's like you want others to be just like you
Not caring about what they really wanna do
Maybe when you're old you've realize what you've done
But now, you still think you're the only one
who's right at all

Where is my mind? lost and behind
Stuck on this past that I cant unwind
With the sickness on my hands
And these lovers becoming predators
of a heart that's already ******
Where is my mind? sick of hurt, sick of lying
Waiting for a happiness expecting to be happening
With Lots of stories, full of glory but never coming true
Where is my mind? fighting these thoughts that tear me apart
in pieces, that make me cry, that make me feel dead inside
Where is my mind? trying not to become insane
with all this blame
with all the things that make me scared
when darkness comes It will all come back again

I wanna be with you but you're hard to reach
Its like you have so many things you wanna teach
And when I come closer to you
You push me away and never ask me to stay
I keep waiting for you to change
But you don't love me anyway
I was scared cause you were so great
But Its seems like I won't get you
And maybe I pushed you away everyday
But only cause I like you and I wanted to
spend time with you
But maybe someday I'll meet someone
Who won't run away , Even if I loved you instead.