It's all written in the stars
Universe in motion
Calling
to
your name
Intrinsic devotion
Moth
to
the
flame

Your words
Only bring me
Closer to you

I am balanced
I have light and dark in me
Shine the light
See thy dark

God loves me enough to let me see my fears face my fears
And bring me to life
I will go only when God says the time is right

Every disappointment can be a blessing
My heart couldn't take the falls anymore

Going commando today!
No socks!!
It helps with the forward rolls :-)

Watched the sky from day to night
From Sun to rain, wind and back again
Watched as clouds rolled on by
Taking form in many ways
As Pink Floyd provides soundtrack
Clouds move in time
Beauty and awe in sight and sound
A melodic daze
So
tranquil
now

I'm not proud of my demons
But I am learning to make peace with them
The hurt I've caused it always came back
The pushing away of others I've realized discerning with that
I've seen the reasons the light sparks the dark
I've said goodbye to people I've loved the most
I've held on to things I've lacked
Forgiveness is a momentary wing
You have to keep flying with that

I can't help my heart
I try I do
It loves strongly and breaks quickly
It loves quickly and breaks strongly too
It loves even when it is broken

I am in the hurricane
Dancing Dancing once again
Dancing my steps when the thunder roars
Smashing the waves from bashing shores
Taking a bow
as the
storm applauds

To change the world must begin within
Before we see it without
To achieve the outer state
We must be it
from
inside
Then it can ripple out

Underneath skin lies light and dark
The dark comes up to light to take over and torment
The light shines on the dark
Let the dark grip show which is buried under dirt
Guide it to the light to be looked at observed
Keep balance in heart and mind
Hidden treasures seek and you may find

Skating on ice
Heavy bag at my side
Lighten the load
Throw it away
There it goes
Skating uphill
Lighter freeing will
Tutor from years by journeying behind
An obstacle up ahead
Blocks just around the bend
Pick them up put them away safe
As much as can now confidently skate still need to beware not to trip and land on my face or any other to hurt from not clearing up after an untidy place

The house I live in I am grateful for
It has a room a place to put a bed
Warmth from roof to floor
Years gone by in this old home
A place to share have meals and have some space to roam
The problem is the damp and mould it grows and grows
It has been seen to but not fixed
A clean home would be lovely to breathe in fresh air
A garden for dog to run around without a care
Trying to push past comfort zones to have a healthy happy comfy home
It's difficult but we try
Know I am lucky in someone else's eye

Feels good to be bad
Bad to be good
Sins should be purged
Instead they mount up
No rest for the wicked
longed for a nap
Instead we cut corners
Filed edges sharp
Hurt with the *****
Scratch til it bleeds
Yet yearn to feel ******
The ***** wants its feed

Back and forth
To and fro
Coming back to lift the heavy load
Box by box
Bit by bit
Drawing in more space to feel lit

The space to fly


To rise
above
it

When I allow myself to feel pleasure I quite often cry
I've held the shame inside
Little by little
I'll let it go

There is hope in the skies if you look for it
The shadows must be seen before you can see what you've been walking with
The light will expose the dark
The warmth can be felt true in our hearts right now
Send others love
Even your enemies it doesn't mean you condone
It means you can find more peace within and let go of binding ties that no longer serve for you and a better world
The breaking down must happen
Before the building back up again to a happier more fulfilling honest life 🌸✨

Pictures hanging on the wall
Paint brush strokes to create the scene
I wanted to purchase them all
To live the life to remember the dream
Walking away to exit the screen
Reappearing wave machine
Your partner held your hand and you just sunk to the sand
Ocean stream flowing over as you just let it be
I wasn't ready
Holding you high above the waters bellow
You held my hand and let me know your noble and humble fears
Onwards we walked to the shore hands still clasped as we talked
Calm and serene was your tone
Nightdress of light blue elegantly flowing around you
Over to the green grass you smile and laugh
I see your eyes for a moment and the image of a wise man was shared
A child as it seemed you reassured me
As all is what it should be as I move on and now grow more beautifully
As a child or whatever I will be
I feel the energy between you and me
We stop on the side to the crossing of the road
Slowly gently softly hands letting go
Still feel the magnetic sense between us as eyes open
Still now want to recall it all and not move from that space
Staring up to the ceiling as come to terms with what I was seeing hearing and feeling
Tears roll down my face and drip into my ears

Dreams turn to nightmares
Feeling strong hold
The need to escape
Fighting to wake
Lifted to veil
Bed covered sail
Movement in the air
Horizon
fading
        away
Drifting to another
stay

Trees so high they reach to the sky
Lush green no one around
Peaceful sound
Burrowing life under crumbled ground
Branches stretch to the next and the next
Touching nature
The forests are never empty
Rooted place
Full
of
connection
Planted face to face

You are etched into my dreams
You turn me around tell me everything is going to be alright
Hold me in your strong arms so very tight
But even in my dreams you are too stubborn to see what can't be seen
I miss the man you could be

You body was never ment to be touched from its skin
It's was ment to be unveiled from within

All is good in this great existence
Our communities are kind and friendly
The world is a beautiful happy place
We are healthier in mind body and spirit
People love what they do and how they live
People freely enjoying life
Going to the parks
Museums
Beaches
Countryside
Fresh air warm sun blue skies

Has it been a fight between dark and light or has it been a fight between the shadow and the light
How many of our shadows have not been healed
Can this ever be right
To all we wonder
Though the balance of scales tips us right
Do we need the night for the oncoming daylight
Can all ever be
One
Beyond illusion
The masks
Perhaps
Only
God's love knows

Arcadian journey to the sun
As oceans cross and earth is one
Circadian rhythm Moon struck with Sun
Priestess Prowess Wholesome God
Evoke your Powers Eclipse and Shone
For Together We Thrive Blazing Throne
My Light is yours and darkness cast on
And in this moment separation gone
Blend to heat and knowing call
Whisper my Love Ecstatically Fall
Rise with Me I give You All
No mortals pleasure
Everlong

From nothing to something


Inbetween this Source


This love

When I awakened the pressure was intense
I cried and prayed to God
God held me in that embrace
God helped me to face another day
When the shadows came
I observed without pain
When the manipulating energies emerged
God protected through the purge
When things I didn't understand came
God gave me clarity to regain
In all God gave me faith throughout it all
The unknown
The uncovered
The depths
The discovered
God kept me safe and loved me all the same
The light came and I saw warmth around
The music angelic
The bliss from higher ground
The dark night of the soul
God brought me through
The gratitude and joy always came back to my heart
No matter what I thought I lacked
Sometimes we learn to keep the faith even in uncertainty
The love inside is eternal and is our spirit too ✨

I saw the eye in my mind
It looks down on me
Am I doing right
Cause I'm feeling wrong
What am I
to do
Show
me  

You see

Life is like a fairground
hall
of
mirrors
The
                distortions
The self
reflections
The clowns
The fear
images
The projections
The
illusions
The going in to find our way
out
The amusement
The minotaurs chasing after us to hunt us down until we learn to free ourselves from the self imposed inflictions on our own mind
The labyrinth
of
         this life

Laying on the bed
He stands over her tall and lean
He cups her face and kisses her softly on the lips
Unbuttoning her night shirt taking her in pulling knickers down slight bit still resting on her hip
Fingers stroke her
He licks her tasting all over
Tongue poking in
Mouth massaging smooching skin
Her moans an ocean he wants to dive in
Her mouth parts wanting his length and width
Tongue tingling tip
Mouth making love
Hair he firmly grip
Her senses a pleasure sensation
a wave of fulfillment
They are lost to the world
A sea of connection

Striving for acceptance
Want to be adored
Content to feel cherished
Not alienated and ignored
Compromising individuality to not be divided
Variety is the spice of life
Each man women a treasure island
Jewels to be uncovered
Faceted sides to be discovered
Each light and shadow cast a mast to set our sails
Focus on the accomplishments in all weather tales
Stories we tell that we didn't do so well
Yes we did we fought the giant squid
Prised apart from the ink blotted dart
Pulled away from its tangled tentacle sway
Made it to today
Lived to have our say
Felt it from the heart

My hands are numb
Body weak
Eyes blurry and red
So tired now
I would like a restful bed
In dreams of astral realm
I
         drift

Take your pain
Aim it at
me
Some days
I may return
On those days I still have more to learn

Doors shifting
side to side
Movement in
Another place
and
time

It is hard to find those that understand
They see you but not the inside
Connections are met by the few and not so many face to face
You feel you have to explain yourself
Tiring to do

I wish for the world to be happy
To know peace of mind
To care for one another
...
behind
Leave the worries

Why do we rely so much on paper to determine our worth
but we do

We always want to look good
How often do we want to be real
Do we give out to be kind
Yes
But is there a satisfied motive tied for which we long to feel
Even selflessness equates a deal
Too real

Secrets in the reeds
My heart bleeds
Soil and sludge trudging slow
Mind aches for the knowledge I don't know
Sinking deep
Deep below
Black as night no sunlight window
Living blind in this hollow
Can I find the sun tomorrow?.
I let go
Sinking still
Surrendering soul to God's good will
The air bubbles rise to the surface
Floating up to see the skies again
Reeds growing reaching climbs ascend

The panic attacks are back
They want their power back
No control on the lowly soul
*******
You had your chance
Now the floor is mine
Let's
Dance

He dipped his hands
into the
sky
Held the moon
& never asked why
He knew
He just knew
.

Subconscious layers built from youth
The child never formed the bond with the world
Though tried as they grew
The observations were enough to get through
Though they wanted more
Conversations to pour into
To find out there's always something you never knew or do as should be done
The eyes are correct to another
Speech was just a way to criticize
Feelings out of place
Misaligned
Rode with the starving mind
To find the thirsty kind
Longing to sip
Struggle to give
Filling the holes into myself
Spaces inside to live

The silence has always been welcome

Poetry has always been faithful to me
Even in the times
we were not together

'She pretended to be hurting
Said it was caused by 'Her
'They all decided it was unfair and turned on 'Her
Unable to contemplate the reasons why 'She cried and lied
'Her case was not heard
'They wouldn't listen at first
'They realized 'She was fibbing putting the blame on 'Her
'They then blamed 'She who played grief
'She was then hurt
'She and 'Her family got angry
Anger turned on each other
'They were ok with 'Her
But not all was ok
'You had all been hurt

Goodnight
Sweet dreams
May your dreams take you to places of splendor and delight
May your joys flow to you on an oceans calming wave
May the sun warm your heart and the path you take
May light and love lead the way
Goodnight
Pleasant dreams
May they flow to you soooo... effortlessly 🌊🌸💕😊✨

I had a dream last night
I met a man
Who liked me for me
The awkward things I said
The words that just pop out my head
He just liked me for me