Realise how locked away I've been Easier to close the door Than let another in Have to have discernment for sure Though fear of vulnerability shuts back more Gentle is the key Steady is the hand
Memories wash up to the shore Times heart was heavy I saw an eyesore Stain on society Using whatever substance and suffering to drug me Unable to see Didn't want to feel anything It hurt too much To go within Should of been sending more love Suffered enough
Write your words in your head Spell it out Message in a bottle bobbing across rivers bed Receiver retriever at the waters edge Reflective shine on glaring neck Taking note from hearts that sent Whispering breezes of wordsmiths lament
I will abstain from *** til my love is real However at the moment alcohol another ordeal Tonight though I witnessed many trials No open door I held opened smiled for a while Pushed into while keeping with some form of style Ignored while waiting in the releasing aisle Letting anger go Noticing it's pointless file Still have more to let go of Though it's in the right time
I'd like to write a bit of fiction But my veins remember being bitten Teeth sunk with my heart Shadows stormed and that was just a start Demons were dark However death was stark You are not just a being But a wholly work of art
Laying on the bed He stands over her tall and lean He cups her face and kisses her softly on the lips Unbuttoning her night shirt taking her in pulling knickers down slight bit still resting on her hip Fingers stroke her He licks her tasting all over Tongue poking in Mouth massaging smooching skin Her moans an ocean he wants to dive in Her mouth parts wanting his length and width Tongue tingling tip Mouth making love Hair he firmly grip Her senses a pleasure sensation a wave of fulfillment They are lost to the world A sea of connection
The antidote to my pain To feel the bite the sting To take in what is given To understand the pain and how it's ridden To acknowledge its present To use it as a gift of healing essence To send it love compassion hope Cry it out Sing its note Send emotion to words I wrote Share the content Recycle hope
Your love can not be eradicating Diminished or Devoid Sometimes it may feel it can But it is always in your heart It lives in you For you That cannot be taken away We just need to remove the fog that clouds with grey
He told me I was brave at a time I had to be brave He said be positive and put a smile on my face He told me I was beautiful I had to believe He gave me hope I had to be open to receive
You can find friendship in the most strangest of places Even without an exchange of faces A timeless beauty in their souls Connection of lifetimes comes back full circle With words of brave Beauty And hope These ships are found across sea and ground Their heart is all they spoke
Through sorrow Through joy Through quarrel Through no hope for the morrow Through love Through kindness Through natures tenderness Through big and small I have shed a tear and cried through them all
He knew just what he was doing He got all the right places That movement That ****** Action Effortless Such suction Deep into the crevice Great with a hoover Terrible up my hmmmmm...
Negligee slipping off her shoulder His hard beating chest pounding to undress To caress and feel her depths Eyes soul-stirring connect Lips break the silence Kisses sweet and juicy Soft then fully Thriving with every thirsting breath Slowly he slides down night dress to admire her curves and supple ******* Fingers tracing shape and voluptuousness Stroking licking ******* her tenderness She moans ******* ***** He loves the impression his taste has met Hand prises her thighs apart Fingers brush a work of art ******* lace and pleasure grips She writhes and shakes her thrusting hips Her excitement is on his fingertips He feeds her mouth Then inside he slips Tickling her soft and slow Riding her ****** flow Her desire His fire Higher and Deeper they go..
There are parts of me I don't like to see Hard to ignore When you live consciously Light shining on all you view and feel Wondering if conclusions are illusions or real Parts to work on That is true Commotion and emotions possessing and exorcising you
Time is no relevance to us Each moment is loving and unique Gazing into each other's eyes upon waking or setting down to sleep Loving from within Though loving touching skin Hands held in bed or out while walking Kisses sweet playful adoring Passion blends romance Hugs comforting and nurturing Friends from the hearts Little pleasures amplified Whether sipping tea or sighting stars You are here with me We belong in each other's arms
World turns around Hanging upside down Chaos fills my brain Dancing in the rain What is madness Which is sane Do you have a right to complain A need to settle back again To hold but not restrain Touching ground from whence it came Fingers weaving earthly cane Roots sturdy shooting vein
We felt fear We got frightened We felt judgement We were judged We felt unworthy We were met with no worth We struggled to love Heart was broken We played the victim We were ****** with abuse Learning and living Purging pain Loving more each day Lessons full of gain
Think I'm scared to be strong Somewhere in the past it's all gone wrong Power and cruelty can sometimes blend Turning allies into enemies Turning away from your self Humble is the straightest line Though to be fear and weak does not serve I guess some balance needs the mind Always centre from the swerve
At a crossroads Can feel the push and shove Like when small in big school trying to make it on the bus Fear is speaking so many things Will you grow horns or divine wings Looking back to you on your own Thoughts inside you felt alone Seeing and feeling all around The want to mute to run and hide Never was a free being child Worry was my tone Never comfortable to turn the light out Even in the home It wasn't the dark that scared me It was what I may hear and sight that put me into fright Was that natural for a little mite I do recall senses of insight to do this or not do that inner calling that could save life Spirit in the past took care of that I wonder how could it all be bad Only my own thoughtless devices ever acted out When I connect in and up there is so much love The child is scared right now she needs a hug
I have seen glimpses of Hell And glimpses of Heaven All we can do is live to our best intention We are far from perfect We are human Mistakes will be made That is certain It's how we learn from them and how we develop compassion for those who walk the world It's not such a straight path Light and dark at time link hands Both teach another sun and shadowlands
I do not idolize God or Jesus for that matter Creation and destruction a part of existence My chained cross I wore around my neck Snapped as I danced with spirit I may place another around my neck but not as of yet If I so choose to I have felt no need to look outside For creation and destruction lives and dies as the air I breathe Expansion Contraction Hope Grief We all live this part No reprieve
Come rest awhile Here by the hollow tree Nestle upon the dirt Roots grow support beneath You will not feel a scratch from me My darkness your shade shall be
Each time the dark approaches I have to learn to love myself in my pain It's a lesson that plays out over and over again Going deeper into the heart Eye glaring out Reversing thought and time Being without the light Traversing beyond the hate
Felt his body lie on top Pinned down Groin pressed into my thighs Genitals hardening Uncomfortable feeling Face of a friend Whispering words of I love you Words repeated back Head in a confused state It didn't make sense Overwhelmed Intense Witnessed my own ignorance Reeling to push the weight off He wanted to **** me Managed to turn away Tempting to tantalize taste buds Exploiting with desires of pleasure Just for bad measure Beast for the flesh I SCREAMED CRIED OUT LORD GOD JESUS HELP!! It all went quiet Stopped.
Love your neighbour Love one another But if the music's too loud Or we are out of tune with each other We have spite in our eyes Would rather run for cover It plays both ways
Call on me When you feel your feet slipping on the rocks Jumping with precision landing on firm socks Markings black shadow spots seen in full Light body brilliance counterbalance dark pall To your self now Voice speak deep Senses feel the ground Viewing from the peak
The world spinning Everyone moving Noise distracting Thoughts grooving Always something to do Something needs improving Overwhelm All coming at a rush Our senses long for a little shush
Take your mind to natures hill tops Encompass an airy flush Eyes turn in Submerge below the skin Find the _ space within Be as it Drifting .....