The light touched my hand
And I was transformed
Back into the earth

The dirt I lay in
Seems to eat me
Knowing I have
no shovel
I began to delve

Mad at the world around
I began to see myself
Wanting to breathe
Just not on the surface

I've got to hide
Run away just for a short time
As the earthworms search me
I see a spotlight beneathe me

Someone else is waiting inside
They're there too
Just like i

Guess the lonely
Need the lonley

When I see her again
Let me tell you
Every cell becomes alive
I awake

The complimentary serendipity
The particle charge of
Reading from the same mind
The quantum sharing of two universal whole beings of light
That somehow got entangeled
And when I see her
It all makes perfect sense
This and this and this...

I feel like a destroyer
A dominant domain
Under siege
Attacked
On the left side of my brain

I feel words being
Taken from my soul
And lifted into another plane

I feel castrated
While menstrated
Drops of blood
Pour out of me again

I feel nothing

I feel creative scars
Trying to mend
Trying to help
But I won't let them in

I'm scared I won't be able
To block all the negative out
Which is intrusive and invasive
And never seems to stop

I feel soulful
Joyus
Loved
Alive

Until
The bread crumbles
In to rye
And I cry

Then I'll heal
Then this pain
Won't penetrate
My atmosphere

My heart
Has been lost
Kept under wraps
If softened
Then what happens next

If looked at
What will I find
Deepened rivers
Opened wide

Gushing
Rushing
She knows who she is

Understood
Misspoken
The real is here again
I must end

He wrote serotonin
On his brainwaves

Made oceans to swim
Inside fascination
And wandering eyes
Instead of demons
At play

He willfully
Passed his away
Shared with another
Calming every wave

And on those days
His mind took haze
And the tools were overlooked
And instead Of giving
he took

My Forest
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Slow ly
To sleep

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Just as sweet

Kumbaya circle of friends
Let's pretend to live there again

Maybe she's my dark love
And I'm trying to make her
More luminescent than she wants

Her eyes
Begin to flutter
Sterile lights flash by
Then drift

She sinks into
An open canvas
Where I catch her
In my memory spawn

Such a gentle
Nature I use
To get close
To her

Then I sit
Watch her
Listen to her murmmer

Existing somewhere
Between the papers
Paints and daffodils

Loving every moment
As hand reaches
Out to me

She wants me to
Drift with her
And just to
Exist

Nothing more
Nothing less

You downgraded yourself
For the sake of humanity
Get off your knees
And come with me
No more games
No lies
No flaws

Lay burdens beside cross
Fly underneath
Through is lost

I bargin for simplicity
Of life
To come and haunt me

Instead of dry
Dusty leaves
Stone temple
Voodoo curses

And late night
Sun rides

What were told we are
We are not

Take time today
To write a different script

Say I love you
To your inner child

Smile at the heavens
And say Thank You

Everybody wants me to be
The queen Penelope
Of this palace

When I'm really
An up roaring *****
Holding a chalice

Not knowing
What I'm really like
Keeping it stuffed down
Really bites

What common forms
Do you flow from

Down stairs or from above
Or in your own galaxies
Do you run?

What's on your lips
Cotton candy
Or sour gumdrops

Do you savor each flavor
Or simply let them drop
Like acid on paper
Like rain from above

Where is your gravity
Where do you run?

Slow sinks
Toilet brinks
Shishkaboobs
Prison walls

Insane melodic mix
Of hourglasses
Set on empty

How many vertabreas
Will you hit on today

Tired
Weary
Never
Too much
Never or
Nothing

Birth
Light
Life smells again

Nice
Sweet
Burst of
Hueish Ranges
Cascade
Down
My eyelids
Like utopias
ARRIVALS

An end
A peace
A wet willow
Tree

Alone
Desolate
Frozen
I stay for hours

Confused
In dark
No end
No START

Just known
Just Alone

Hoping to be
Brought Up again
From births springs
By a latent
Mystery man
One who will teach me that ashes aren't the worst thing I could sift within

To breathe in parasites
Let them swirl around
In your room for a bit
and blow back the soote
Of burdens past mistook

And sit with them all
And watch them run wild
Pick one of your favorites
And ask him to stay for a while

Share a verse or two
Please ask him to wipe
Away the voodoo
At The Door

Who could ask for
Anything More

Hola
Se la vie
Goodbye resend
The same lines again and again
The pain runs faster
Inside my head meeting me again
You're open to anything
Right?

Inspiration
Muse
I must find some
This significant curiosity
Has hit me
And it controls desires
Incomplete infinite desires
Star staring
Sun stroking
Burst
Vibrant

Zoned out
Out of wordly time
In own space
In own mind
With filled up love
Lust flowing over

Inside
Pickets
Flowers
Dandelion
Satire
Willfull
Controlled
Fre­e essence
Run faster
Come inside
Sit down
Share share
Your desires

She wants to feel important
She wants someone to see her talents
And smile and laugh

To share a common bond
A similar interest
Cause right now
She mostly feels alone

And the silence
Doesn't fill her
Her soul rots away

If she can't get away
From her inner demons
She fears she'll soon fade

Her inner child wants
to feel joy again
To sparkle and such

To light up her eyes
Is all she'll ever want

To write where no one follows
To lead where there is no path
To take hold of the mundane
And make something magical
That's what a poem does to your life

This time
Act athourative
Give pleasure to the pain
Demand respect
Be an as whole
As long as you don't hurt yourself

Counteract the regression
Look inside find peace and perfection
Hurry the hachet
And then go steal your key
Back from the wicked witch
And stupid ol monkey

I'd agree things
Aren't meant
To repeat
You act as if
It's good to feel rushed
Nervous behavior
Come to a stop

Let winds whisper
And trees blow
Go to places
No one knows

Then
And only then
Will they leave
You alone

Part one
Scene a million
Out of nowhere came a shadow
I looked to my right
And felt this strange
Oppressed and battle
Timeline jumping
Scattered
What the he'll does it matter
Stop and pursue
The red flag
That you draw

You can't hurt me
You are fictional past
Someone somewhere far away
Hurt you and I sit everyday
With your pain
I give it back

Where does the bird weep?

You've released
in me a passion
and I can't resist
the satisfaction
of coming under
your spell

You have me
you've locked
me there!

These members are not my own
They seep through the rapids
As I drown

They ask me questions
They tell me what to do
How to feel
And then condrtridict their own

*** am I supposed to do
When I can't get through?

Punish me
Don't lash out
Take me
Don't drown me
With doubt

Have another taste
My loves like *******
Pure and innocent
The aftertaste will
Stay with you for days
And then you'll want another taste
Come back
I'll give you seconds
Thirds and fithes
Come and get me
Give me your kiss

I'll bite your lips off
Twist them into my wrath
Hold you down secretly
Until there's nothing left

Arrow through head
Back dot breathe

Its far more advanced
Than anyone knew
There are holes
You can fall through
And not have a freaking clue

The gap
Is another word
For depression or the blues
It seems my mind
Tears apart what it
Use to use
And makes me think
That I'm being abused
That every answer
To every thought
Is wrong
Pointless
Or incomplete

But on the other hand
It can be a good thing
A thing to use
A canvas
A poem
A way to reach out
To a few

So don't give up hoping
The fog will soon lift
I'm still obbssessed with
Finding my gift
Even through everyday
Chores I find life
A little too boring
But as soon as I start
To pour it seems
The gates start closing

Where is the open door?
What is it im searching for?

How do you
Make *** work for you
When you crave intimacy?

Violet ribbons
tied across
rosy red cheeks
Isee...
You smile
white teeth shining
as a crystal clear
drop of tear
crosses over the
ribbon & down
your salty dry
mouth

Sinking inside
is the beautiful lie
you're repeating
in your head
Yousee...
the slashes of
bright red imprinted
right beneath
the surface
pain swells
Isee...
your posture
abide you
a little ounce
of time
Framed
in the back
of your mind
Yousee...
backbone split
opening wings
Isee...
egale stance
& stories turned
back onto
the one
who needed
it all along
disappear
the mirrors
GONE

Ashes left ashes
it's all you'd ever
see in the
back of standing
on 2 feet

Trace back
To when
Playgrounds whispered
Haunted memories

Redundant
Sound control

Freeze dried
Pebbles onto
River banks flowing

Following transcending ringing
Summoned
Feathered down
By scavengers

Hence feasible
Recipes

Unorthodoxed swallowing
Rocks churning appendixes

You are the night
Pulled in tight

Hair tangled
Around my fingertips

Sweet nectar of neck
Honey gold permiance

§wallow the Light

Her vase flew
Empty and forgoten

Her mouth
Still numb
From the everescent
Sonderless

POINT

The truth
Could **** you
If you let it

The light out weighs
This tunnel now
And all The dark clouds
Have faded

Make use of your time
To keep them out
Dont get frustrated
The hate will dissipate
Let me melt them away

Listen to me inside
I am your heartbeat
I am your story cloud
Brighten me

I run from the Present
Living in my past.

Taken part one
She rapped the wind
With her Cold lack of
sufficational fixated states

Letting blossoms grow out
of her mouth
Forgetting to wash
Before she ate

Please forgive me
While I partake in sin

The frying pan
Is too big
For your fat head

Raw
Wet
Details
Fine art

Veins
Soaked
Blood
Fine art

Corrupt
Broken
Worned

Complete
End
Sworn

Abide
My love
Never look
Back again

Her electricity vibrated across the red room
She was chemically aroused twenty four hours and one
Endignantly dilluted by her parents influence
She was systemmatically insincere

Yet one taste would send you on a trip no ones ever taken you before
As if the world melted away and you were suspended in mid air by her clear iridecent mind blowing energy of innocence

You start to feel the tingles rapid vibrations encased like a bodysuit just perfectly fitted for you begin at the edge of your toes

This energy climbs your entity as your mind numbs
You are nowhere else
There is no time or space here
You are in your own pyramid
You leave the earthbound
In another place beyond earthbound

I craved
You in ways
My body
Never knew
Possible

Overacheiving
Overdose

Looking for
A haunting high

Set fire
To night drawn
Skies

In colors
So bright
My tongue
Burst
With electricity

And all truth
Spilled on top
Of me

Like a mountain
Of fantasies

You came and
Saved me

Wired wood
Carving inner mind
Into portraits
Of shoelace desire
Of things unbeknowst

Symptoms
Suicide

System in a panic
Finding answers few

What brought
This forth
From the back layers
Onto the floating
Clouds
Which laid
Dormant for
So long

Why are you here now?
And *** do you want?
I was doing
Just fine!!!

Erupted corrosion
Distorted perception
I need time
All I need is time

To let the air
Blow thru
These cracked
Pencil shavings

Reaching my tinder
To set my heart
On fire

We all pour expressive concrete
On our faces
From time to time
We all lay paralyzed by our
Own imagined fears

What we do next
Is what cuts the cord
Or plunges the knife

Her riot forced her into predomination
Of all the abolishment this was
The final end

She played the game
Far too long
To not give in

But to leave
All for once
And all at once

Blackhole ****** thru me
Turned toward
The torched Sun
Only to peel the bleached
infectious skin

Vibrating in the
Noise I call THE WIND
It whispers at first
Then turns up the volume
To see a traveling herse

Jokingly I submerse my body
Only to find that the
Purest necter
Negotiated on that tree
The vines wrapped around my leg
Wouldnt
Let me Go
Thru it
Around it
It wanted to eat me whole
And so I let it
For a season maybe two
But wasn't this the me
I'd hoped for lived with
It gets confusing
And this mess
Looks like a mess
A pig stye room
And after eating dinner
She roast a toast
To her dead lovely awaiting
Husband
Patiently they walked up and over
The corpses law

Jagged and weary
Their bones fell
Into each other
Lost they put the
Wrong pieces together
And now he's she
And him is her
Everything doesn't
Make sense
Except for true earth
Which vibrates
At a frequency
That is drums like WIND
Like fire
Like all the crusted attire
These women warmed me with

Nothing beats the flesh
Of another true warrior
Nothi,e and I mean
NOTHING
REUNITES AS IMPALLING
AS HIS FLESH RIPPENING FOR HIS OWN URGES

Kisses by sins nature
He throws shame and anger
Meeting her at the door
He greets his afterstare

"There's a Maturity
in the cleverness
of calmness."

I liked it better
When we fought
Then I could get attention
Then you'd call me out

Dear sweet attention
What's my name
Slap me
Berate me
Carmalize me instead

Make me pretty
Attention will follow
Many beds

Till I collapse underneath
My pillow instead
And crawl to walk
And walk I shall stay

Firm and steady
Not wishing I was dead
Past washed
Past watched
Not to show up
But to feel me
leave my IMPRINT

I'm washed away
By the shame
I face

Skin yellow
Heart bruised

Open
Bleeding

What are we reaching for
Surface
Graves

Madness magic
Same thing

He wore crooked windows
Beside morning coffee
And her spilled milk

Fortunes
Tithes
Is it important
Which melody
I play

Excited
Vurnable
Play the part

Which is ridiculous
What happened to
Ginuine
Comfort
In skin

Abnormally
Normal
Kinship
Kind

Irrationally freaky
Consumed with selves

Who wants
To sin
Count your cards
I'm all in

Let rebels cry
And victims resume
Their forgotten
Podium
On the empire
We Stand

Pink
Passion
Pulse

Forgive me for what I'm about
To do
Draw you inside of me
So now you can see
What it's like to let go
Of the World and venture
On the edge where
The girls play and shadows
Come in

Where the dark purple
Skies submit to
A land of candy canes
And butterflies

The tombs
Laid full
Beneath my
Feet again tonight

Tomorrow my
Shoulders will
Buckle
While my body
Take flight

And the
Lack of
Ancient trust
Will once
Again
Come into
Question

As I
Lay inside
The sculpted
Hollow

And dance
Again
With this
Melody
That's played
a thousand
Times

And let it **** me
Because I was too
Afraid to let
You see me

You ride
Inside my hair
You are eveywhere
Green beauty

With buds a color
Too perfect to burn
Green beauty
I make you my home

One day she woke up
And he wasn't there.