The roses of yesterday
               wilted
Their purple hue darker
Strong stench of decay

The lilac of when
              continues
Their color still bright
Its perfume still strong

It is not done
                   pause
A battle worth fighting
Light defeats the darkness everytime

A sliver of the moon peaks through the raging storm
A sign of foretelling, a sign of warn
The lightning brightens the sky
The earth rumbles in fear    
Rain crashes down like waterfalls into rivers
Wind thrashing at the trees
Making their limbs bend, bleed
Streetlights go out
Children are heard to shout  
Lightning flashes and a tornado is seen
It is November this should not be
Only in Oklahoma will in fall, you have spring

Lay with me
Tonight by my side
Entwine you hand with mine
unless you ask I won't bite

Let me rest my head upon you chest
Wrap your arms around me
cast my demons away
Let me feel secure during rest

Lull me into sleep
Our bodies tightly fused
Let your heart sing it's song to me
help me dream in color my muse

Hold me till morn's rays
Come spilling through the room
Awake me then with a kiss
*water this garden into bloom

'Knock knock'

"Is anyone there?
Hello?
I am calling?"

                 ccccrrrreeeeaaaakkkk

"Ahh, well hello
We've been expecting you"
"Me?"
"Yes, you.
We have been waiting"
"We? But this is my mind"
"Yes it is..please come inside
You see my dear one
In here We reside
There are many of us

                            'legion'

So many places to hide
We are your thoughts that betray
the ones you thought let get away

                   'seven deadlies'

Away we did
Inside this mind

                     'pride, greed, lust, envy,
                         gluttony, anger, sloth'

We want to come out and play
It is time we had our day
We are but one and many the same

                             'your legion'

*The thoughts you buried arose for claim
Let us out
For in here we cannot but shout
The time for us is now
We shall serve you, this we vow"

One more cigarette
One more poem
Another night I sleep alone  

I've made this bed of mine
The one of lonely times    

No longer did I want to be unhappy
No longer did I want my feelings misconstrued
I do love
but not in love anymore with you
    
What we had was great
What we had was fun
But years ago it came undone

You changed and I tried to accept
I love you and you have my respect

But through the years I've found us drifting
Not together but apart
In that time you lost my heart.

Brown eyes
Green eyes
Black eyes
Blue
Sinful eyes, I see you...
Steel eyes
Grey eyes
Moss eyes too
Oh my, my. What shall I do?
Burning
Searing
Soulful infused
The devil comes out in you
Window
Let
Me
Inside
You
*Now I'm lost before I knew....

I must say that today was a good day
I kept a smile on my face
but now it's night
Out come all the feelings I have tried to fight
Bombarding me with their essence
Clawing their way inside my head
Searching hard at my wall
Built around them, to keep me from my fall
Looking to find a breach
I must have one, for out some have leaked
the not good enough's, strong enough's, smart enough's, pretty enough's
for you
All my smiles vanish from the day
Gone like the suns rays
My insecurities flit about
Teaming my mind
Filling it with doubt
The crack must have become a crevice
A true breach in my defenses
For here I am laying in bed
*thinking how to just end

A broken dagger in my back
It was twisted and turned
Placed right in the middle
Cannot get it out

The jeweled hilt lays at my side
Mocking me
Knowing I cannot get out
What lays inside


Why did you place it so
So beautiful with all its jewels
Why did you twist and turn
Break it off where our love away burns

Fingers feel
soul sighs
Swords ******
Into the depth you go
Begging for more
Barriers melt away
Windows open
amber in glasses swirl
Inhales of the smoke
Dreams become reality
Whispers penetrate
Calling to the other
souls collide
With a mournful
*whiskey
lullaby

I just want to lay here
Wrapped in your arms
Skin to skin
Souls laid bare

Don't want to leave
Knowing I must
A feeling of peace
It completely engulfs

Take me once more
Show me how we're wrong
I don't believe it's true
Since my angels now sing your tune

I sit here pondering on what I should write
My mind goes left
My mind goes right
The left is all unicorns, fantasies, and such
The right holds a more scientific touch
My left is screaming love and lust
While my right states clearly
Honestly, you are not ready to trust
So on to the pen and parchment I write
While my thoughts go left
Then turn and take a sharp right

Even though it was a comedy
It hit close to home
Comedy is just drama
With a little fun

The mask does nothing
But hide a crying face
Comedy is making fun
Of the heartbreak

You laugh until you cry
Nothing new at all
Except it hits your heart
Makes you feel it all

Comedy is just a mask
You put on for the show
Deep inside you feel it all
In the still of the night
You let it go...

I'm sitting on my back porch
Smoking a cigarette
Looking at the stars
Hazed out by smoke
Oklahoma is burning
Flames are all around
Smells like a campfire
Even in town
Livestock are dead
Running for the barren river
Wildlife gone
Majestic mountain lions
Climbing in the burnt trees
Only to die of smoke inhalation
Oklahoma is burning
River beds running dry
Dear Lord above
Give us rain
Help us see an end to this nightmare
Of Oklahoma burning

Your words are my song

             the angel's choir itself

Your kiss my heavenly host

              we take this body

Velvet hands my drink

               we take this blood

You have become my blasphemy

                lord forgive us our sins

My vessel ready

                 as we forgive those before us

Stronger than lust, less than love

                  lead us not into temptation

**** you and **** myself

                 *we are the devil's playground

Such a beauty to see as in you knife
S
Sl
Sli
    lip
      ips
         ps
          s

Such a song to my ear as blood
D
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p i r
s p i
   s p
      s

Such a feel it has upon my hands your heart
Q   i  e  s
   u  v r
Q   i  e  s
   u  v r
Q   i  e  s
   u  v r

Such a taste in my mouth while you
    S
S   h
S  h  i
  h  i  v
    i   v  e
      v  e r
        e   r
           r

Such a bountiful scent you release when you
Cr
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C    a  k
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C
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This devil in me, mine and yours, soul
BLACK

BLACK

**BLACK

When I am nothing but the rain
cold, harsh, unrelenting
Will you stay?

When I am nothing but the night
dark, lonely, scary
Will you run and hide?

When I am nothing but the fire
wild, scorching, unrelenting
Will you burn with me?

Tonight's the night!
I'm gonna "party like it's 1999"
Take my cup and fill it up with "brass monkey"
tequila really
Try to hang with these party animals
See what shenanigans I can create
Then when my libido is at its high
Gonna call you up
Come give me a ride
Even though you said
you no drinky, you no fun
Guess what, it don't matter
I'll make us both undone
That's my plan anyways....

but instead I see it going like this...

Party it up like I said before
Call you up
Have you take me to your door
I'll be drunk so the filter will be gone
I'll ask of you to sing me a song
Then I'll become brave
Liquid courage out of its cage
You may not remember but I sure do
Words you said to me as if on cue
Did I really hear right
Did you call yourself my boyfriend that night
Does that mean you think we're exclusive
If so why do you always act elusive
Tell it to me straight
For I have met you at hell's gate
And if you say that lying you were
Then this is nothing more than a blur
I will sleep this night by you one last time
In the morn I will leave this supposed paradigm...

Aww  hell,
This is gonna hurt.
I let my heart open,
And in he came.
Nope, I fear this one is not going to stay.
Yep, I've done it this time!
I've set myself up!
This is gonna hurt.
Yep, this time it's gonna hurt like hell.

This is not me
I am not a girlie girl see
I don't like to write about
Rainbows, butterflies, roses and such
I enjoy the macabre
Death, destruction, blood, and pain
My muse is making it harder though
To write about what I truly know
Blood red nails raking backs
Reapers coming ******* you dry
Black hole heart's and obsidian souls
Graves dug deeper
Just to place you in so you cannot talk my secret keeper
These are the things I know
Now here I am...
Sunshine, unicorns, and **** rainbows
Heart's a flutter
Rose's are red, violets are blue
Oh dear me, now what to do

And then it hit her...
Like a thousand stars going into supernova. The brilliance of their light, instead of blinding, showing her. This is it. This is what she's been waiting for. Her other self. And it all stemmed from his smile at her...

There is a picture that hangs on my wall
It says "Enjoy the Journey"
Does that mean I can also enjoy the fall?
The fall into another's arms
The fall into another's kiss
The fall into another's heart
"Enjoy the Journey"
I believe I will
I'll enjoy this journey into it all
I will enjoy not only the journey, but also the
       F
             A
                   L
                         *L

21 years ago
a blast shook the state
Seventh grade and TV'S were off in school
What was wrong?
We became anxious
somethings off

Got home and my mom was crying
She's like me, we don't cry
I was scared
I learned a new word that day
Domestic terrorism

Domestic terrorism
Two words that should never be together
Two words that killed 168 souls
Two words that took the lives of babies

Two
       Words......

He thought it would ******* us
******* the heartland

We showed him
We became stronger
More vigilant
Using our second ammendment to the fullest
Pulling together in any crisis

This is the Heartland
This is the Heartbeat of America
Together we Stand
UNITED WE OVERCOME!

Domestic terrorism
Two words

Two
      Words

We will never forget
**WATCH OUT

Where did these come from
Brush them off, yeah, brush them off
               They won't leave
Sticky, spun strong like the spider's web  
Try again
Dance around like crazy trying to flick them away
                All to no avail, still there
Lay with someone else
A name slips....yours, Freudian slip
If they heard they didn't say
                Has happened more than once
                all trying to not let this be
Spider's web weaved around my heart
Scared, can't do this.
Not ready. Not yet.
                ready, not ready
                just afraid of being again left alone
Try to brush them off, sweep under the rug, wash them off, drink and sleep them away
****, still there....
              *For this roller-coaster ride I guess I'll start to prepare.

Three rows from the front
That's where I sit
Oh, and to the right of the pulpit
My eyes gaze upward towards our dear crucifix
I pray hard for salvation
I try harder to cast the devil aside
I listen with rapt attention when the priest begins to sermonize
During all this, I feel a tickle on my neck  
I feel as though I'm being checked
For whom I feel is watching sits about six pews back, and to the left    
I wonder, does he pray for penance too
Lord knows both him and I have given the devil his due
I try to brush it from my mind and listen like I should
But it's so hard when the one I want, though still far apart, feels like he sits next to you    
Time now for communion
I hope my vessel ready
I stride up to the communion minister
I'm starting to feel a little heady
As I walk back to my place
I take a chance and glance
He quickly looks to the ground
I know that he watched me
My cheeks grow redder as I remember last night's round
I kneel and pray, giving thanks to our God
And I say an extra special prayer
Thanking Him for letting him be there
Now that church is over
I breathe a sigh of relief
We didn't get struck by lightning
As been told in belief
Maybe my prayers or his and mine combined
Kept the devil at bay
Maybe God then was the one today
The one to show that it's ok, that this may actually be.
That him and I can quit punishing ourselves
That together we can be.

Do you understand this Mr so-n-so?
He works for her and her alone.
Are you really understanding  this?
She's saying goodbye in the decrees quips
Are you sure you truly understand?
She no longer wants you as her man
I just want to make sure you're getting this all
She's done with you
She's through
No more dances at the ball
So let her go, let her fly
Do not attempt to hold her back with simple lies
I will see and so will he
Then we will give you misery
So tell me again Mr man
That this you truly understand
She's gone from you
There will no longer be a her and you

I have sacrificed so much
More than you know
I sacrificed my happiness
I sacrificed my soul

I hate to sound so needy
Selfish in the flesh
I have sacrificed so much
I did it all for you

Now you go and leave me
At a time I need you most
You didn't die or anything
You leave knowingly, leaving me your ghost

I wanted to leave you myself
To this day I wish I would have
But I stayed for it was expected of me
My soul placed on the slab

I want to also tell you this
But I know I never could
I'll keep this all inside
Just like a good daughter should

I want to lose myself
In between the pages
See fae and dragons
In my mind's eye
Feel loss and love
All in an hour
Become someone else
Feel the weight of a crown
Have the wind whip my hair
As I dive into a forest
See the greenest of greens
The bluest of blues
Escape from reality
Delve into another
I want to lose myself
**on the words of writer