I would have told you if you asked
Yet you knew all along
My pain that never goes away.
You chose to ignore my pain
that hollowness
You could have filled that void
Yet you blame
I hold no grief.
I Need not explain

I'm pretending to not care.
You sitting beside me
I want to push you over
Who are you there.

Nothing is inside you,
I looked through,
You are just a shell of a man,
I thought I knew

Was it a dream, where did you go,
I hear your voice, I take your call,
It doesn't matter
Matter at all.

I cry a minute
I cry an hour,
My thoughts so sweet,
And then so sour.

I listen to what you have to say
I know, I know
I've heard enough,
Each passing day.

I keep busy,
It hurts a lot,
Each passing minute,
An hour I forgot.

I look around,
Is that from you
It doesn't matter,
Its just a thing I bid ado.

Get out of my life,
Get out of my head,
That face of yours,
Thought I'd never dread.

I use to watch you in bed asleep
You looked so perfect,
Now washed out, faded
I disconnect.

You are s stranger
In my dreams,
Never were before,
It happens a lot it seems.

My tears sting me,
My aging face,
People say I'm young looking,
So full of grace.

I hide behind these pretty clothes,
The makeup,
Hair,
So not to expose.

Tired of hearing time
Heals our pain.
If I listen to them,
What do I gain.

Empty box
empty brain space
free rent in your head
like the last chip in a bag
last drop of milk but enough for your coffee.
looking for just one pen
and finding a whole bunch.

Those wings you wear with feathers,
In the clouds,
Here and fro you go.
You cannot exist here.
I know.
May I go wherever you are.

I feel that cold beneath my feet.
Under the cupboards, under my feet.
In the air, not visible.
Yet I know you are there.
What a comfort.
I smile in my security,
Knowing your presence does not have to be seen,
To be there.

So smooth, your skin. You say.
That lust of  yours.
Do you always get your way.
I say.
I remember that kiss on those lips, so
Warm and yet so chilly.
The thought of the unknown.
They say in the blink of an eye.
May I blink and keep my eyes open, while you keep your eyes closed.

Facade from the front;
So different;
Variation;
Internal and exterior.
How do you hide behind that.
Must be so hard to hold that inside