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  Oct 2015 kaleigh michelle
ri
you can't explain to someone how it's always raining
you know how hard it's poured for the last year
only you know how many times you've fallen and the water is ankle deep
don't you dare try to explain to someone who is only sunshine that you're drowning
the water is everywhere and they never knew you didn't know how to swim
don't bother telling them
they couldn't ever understand
people keep telling you to stand up they repeat it over again and again
stand up they say it's not that deep
but only you know how the water has built up inside you and only a cut can relieve the pressure
but you're five months clean and you just have to battle the ocean waves which are stronger than you
one day you might be stronger than the raging waves but as of tonight you are not
so I'd learn how to swim if I were you
  Oct 2015 kaleigh michelle
ephemeral
darling, I know the voices in your head
can go on for hours each day
about just how insufficient you are.
but I'd scream from the top of my lungs
just so you could hear the truth:
you are enough.

you have always been more than enough.
kaleigh michelle Oct 2015
it's the worst feeling in the world. one that shakes you to your very core. i'm not good enough. it hits you and suddenly you're doubled over in pain in the bathroom and you can feel your heart breaking and the tears won't stop falling and the thoughts in your head run wild and all you can think about is every single thing that you're not good enough for. and you just want to run away but the demons in your mind are running away with the little bit of sanity that you had left and all you can do is lay there curled up holding onto the hope that it's just a bad day but you know it's not just a bad day and when you wake up tomorrow you're still not going to feel good enough. and how are you supposed to pretend you're strong and face all those things that make you feel worthless, stupid, useless, non-important? and how are you supposed to care about yourself when it feels like no one else cares about you either? and the worst part is you don't even know who you are anymore. she left a long time ago and she never came back.
  Oct 2015 kaleigh michelle
Helen
always remember,
words spoken,
especially
in anger,

can never be
Unheard

rarely
Forgiven

but not
*Forgotten
changed a bit from my FB post but the sentiment is the same...
true story today and it *hurts*
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