How could I be so lost,
In a place I know so well?
How could I be so broken,
In a family so together?
How could I be so lonely,
Surrounded by so many?
How could I be so unhappy,
Surrounded by so much beauty?
How could I be me,
When even I remain a mystery?

Music of moments
Accompanying my solo
Rumbles of noises
Companion to my pain

Sleepless nights
Even when you are asleep
Haunting nightmares
And painful dreams

Lost in the day
Confused at night
Pressuring voices
Clouding my mind

Tired hearts and careless words
Not knowing what is worth
Biting lips and controlling emotions
Looking for the right station

*Yet this gaze of love
Insanely, you would say
So much comfort within a single hold
A touch that consoles my crazy soul

Depression is here everyday
And it never goes away
Go away! I yell into the dark
As if someone is there
I feel as if I'm a prisoner
In the dungeon's lair
And as always no one cares
Do I dare?
Dare to care about anyone but me?
Could it be,
Someone there?
Someone there to care?
No, just an image
That's the way it will always be
No matter how hard I try
I just want to get by
I go through life day by day,
I thought pain was supposed
To go away with time
But it's not
It's still here
Here with the fear
Fear that I will get hurt more

Talk is cheap
Life isn't
So speak up
If you feel down

I am confused
What is love?

Looked at the mirror
Who are you?
Someone I don't understand
Why did you follow me?

The only one constantly by my side
The others come and go
But I was always there for me
Although I didn't always help

I expected others to help me
But only I was there for me
When all you get is called ugly
Stupid, and such, it's easy to see

But I turned on myself
I ripped my flesh apart
I tortured myself with nightmares of dead "friends"
For an entire year I tortured myself

All to prove that I cannot always be there
For my friends
All to prove
That I cannot protect those I cherish most

I can't even understand myself
So I look in the mirror
Into those hazel eyes
Who are you