I hate being clingy but can't help it.

I miss you, I've been thinking about you, about us.
I miss the days we talked everyday, all night.
And I don't mind the red flags you possess,
because I only think about positive about you and obsess.
Even though we never dated, I still am clingy and annoying over you.
I'm sorry.

I'm terrified
With the idea
That our undoing
Might become the
Latest addition to my
Vast list of shortcomings

Humans are so lost in the search of God that they have lost themselves.

You, boy,
A black sun in my sky,
Stomping through my soul,
Leaving craters where love once stood.

The ashtray’s a graveyard—
Cigarette corpses stacked high.
Whiskey whispers in mason jars,
Coffee cold as my heart.

Red lights, stop signs,
I’ve been stuck in this motionless grind,
Unhappy for years,
Dragged down by your weight.

Your heart, left at the door—
A cruel offering,
A beast hiding in your skin.
You sprung bitter tears like a broken fountain.
Time ticking, killing,
Till you become a man.

Will you shake me loose,
Like the spare change you never count?
Burn me out like yesterday’s Polaroid,
Edges curling, my face fading.

I’ll drink to tomorrow.
I’ll drink to forgetting.
But your shadow, boy,
Still lingers in the cracks of my mind.

I am the fire.
I am the scream.
And you?
You’re nothing but a dream dissolving in smoke.

Staring down at the rope,
Rethinking every life choice.
Wishing to be dead,
Messages are already sent.
There is no going back.
I get the rope tie it around my neck,
I can't hang it anywhere.
I tighten the rope,
Vision went blurry.
I can't hear anything,
Ringing in my ears is too loud.
Its been 10 minutes,
I didn't go unconscious.
I just gave up.
Woke up with my face blue.