You are a garden in my head.
Bright and colorful,
full of life.
Memories blossom,
and I become lost.
Lies grow like weeds,
infecting the beauty.
Your words are like water,
truth becomes lost in the undergrowth.
I take great care of these weeds;
I am their protector.
This garden seals my fate.
The gates are closed and I am stuck,
but I don't mind.
Long-cold memories sit perched
on our rock.
Waiting for your warm embrace,
which never comes.
This garden is a prison,
trapping me with thoughts of you.
There is no escape,
for the walls are high
and I have no strength to climb them.
Everything has long since died,
except the weeds
that I tend to so carefully.
They even choke out the sunlight.
I know this is not where I should be,
yet I cannot let go.
I long for my hands to once again have purpose.
But now, I realize, not from you.
The key, I find, was around my neck the whole time.
I have finally set my heart free from this cage,
and the garden is no more.
The gates swing open,
they creak as if to say, "Where were you?",
and welcome me back into the world.

The boy breaks down
On a knee cold and alone
His heart screams,
Echoes void of space, time, or place
The faintest of whispers

Light steals the room
Blind fascination
Gestures suggestion
Come with me
Know of life and love
A voice splashing on the walls once dark

Pain?
No pain
I can see you're tired
The light may burn your eyes,
But I bring warmth
Please, come

Afraid, but willing
Hand out in faith
Darkness is black
The light is gone
As is the boy

Alive with the glory of love.

When I came to visit you
You were still writing in that notebook
And when you looked up
A hopeful gaze, a trusting embrace
I sat down beside you
It almost hurt to do so
We hadn't talked in so long
But you were always busy with your new theories
Always figuring something out
You continued to scribble on
As if I wasn't there
But then stopped abruptly
You twisted the pen this way and that
Before you pointed at my hand over and over again
I looked down at the band that encircled my finger
You should have known I would've moved on
I could see the questions swirling in that mind of yours
So I told you the story
We met my first year of college
He was Mr. Nice
The kind of guy who still had manners
Who opened the door for a woman
He was smart and sweet and there
He focused on what was important
It was our junior year when he asked me to marry him
I told him yes
I would marry him
I noticed at this point you went back to writing
You had tuned me out
I came all this way to visit you
And you couldn't stop writing for a minute
So I grabbed your pen and threw it somewhere far away
I grasped your arm and told you to listen to what I had to say
Your blues eyes stared wide-eyed into mine
I sighed, knowing you were upset
I would probably regret that
But I wanted you to listen
Because you never do
I told him yes
Do you not get that
I told him yes
Yes, yes, do you not understand
What that means?
You turned and looked at me with such anger
And for a moment I was glad
You felt something inside come alive
Something you couldn't quite explain
A formula that didn't exist in that pen and pad
Yeah, I understand perfectly
You said
No, you don’t
You looked away
And threw your pad to the side
As you drew your hands together, clenched and tight
I don’t know what you want me to get
To understand
You whispered
Trying to calm down
I said yes
—I get that
You said "yes" I understand
—No you don’t
I said yes, which means I gave up you
I gave up the opportunity to be with you
Because I loved you
And you never saw that
You never looked past that stupid pen and pad
So I said yes to someone who would
Who would love me in all aspects
Treat with me respect
I said yes to that
You reached over and grabbed my hand
I closed my eyes
Warmth flooded in
Tears were flowing down
And I didn't have the strength
To pull away
To leave
Because you still made me feel
Something I never can feel with him
So I open my eyes and whisper in the dawning light
Tell me you love me
Say you love me too
Because I know you do
You can’t explain it
And that kills you
Because you want so badly to
You don’t understand what's happening
How you’re feeling
There’s no formula
No equation, just your heart
Not your mind, so say it
I need to hear it
Please, tell me
*Say you love me too

Let this be
A warning
To all
Who dare venture
Into the
Mystery of
Love.

Is it worth giving up
Everything
For something that might not
Be true?