your tongue
was all over
me
when i realized
i didn't want to
**** my friend:
but i'd never felt
your skin on mine
so closely, i felt
braindead, you
had been my
romantic interest
for two weeks
already
and there we were
******* in your bed,
so i asked you to
be with me
while i came
between small
breaths and moans
and you said yes

and then we
****** some
more, fell in
love a little  
more,
and i'd
never been
more thankful
of speaking.

today exists
in movie stills
i have only
ever been
a ghost
in my
own
skin

southern girl
lily petals,
you buy me
flowers
first paycheck
no more drugs
they smell like
warm bedsheets
hotel coffee
sun

when we ****
i see stars
on your
flat base white
ceiling, screaming
out to me:
i feel loved.

we're ***** disgusting
*** on the kitchen floor
we never wait
we don't want to wait
i don't think we've ever waited

i just want to love you
all over until pomegranate
seeds appear on my altar
each day

we fall asleep
snoring
holding hands
smiling

blood sample
in my baby
pink purse

i'm into potions,
into *** magic,
mix your soul
with mine

and let me
become
something

i want to wrap your
hand around my
ancient spine,
tell me i'm
selfless

make it about me,
baby, make my
skin boil
heart stop
sacrifice  :
    i just want to
    be happy

my lover comes from a town where
every image triggers the memory
of a memory : everything is new and
overgrown, even the trees. but it feels
as if he has been here forever.

the sky floats in my rearview
as a reflection against an old,
white dodge neon, sun settling
into the hollow hole in my
stomach
like
melted peach frozen yogurt.

last bit of sunlight sleeping somewhere
in my skin, i put my brights on halfway
down the highway, smiling into the
shadow of today (the shadow of him),
i can't help but love the way
his eyes smile before i
leave.

i roll my windows
all the way down
so it will feel like
i am flying
all over.

stop light red moon
i follow
where the sun sits
home into the
night

slow driving
i have time to think
take pictures of tree
-lines so i won't
disappear

our words trail across
the sky as airplane exhaust
fade before i blink
i still feel them
in my skin

i feel him waiting in
every forest
every second
every foot more of pavement
until i am home

and he is smiling as i drive away
**** any god, i pray he follows