the electrical current
started in the top of my skull,
   and poured itself down the back of my ears and the nape of my neck
         and curled into beaded sand that tumbles through my vertebrae
             down to the small of my back and under the soles of my feet. it's a friendly current,

and it makes me think of
   a boy with freckled shoulders, whose eyes i used to love.
it makes me think of how
both our noses wrinkle when we laugh
  and we like the same songs by the same band for different reasons.
it makes me remember why we're always laughing in the first place,
       and it makes me want him in a way that i'd forgotten how to want a person.

it's making me brave, this muscle-deep current.
it's making me remember different shoulders and different eyes than usual -
which is good, healthy, you know.

it's making me brave and it's making me love again. it's making me want to stand up to you. say all the things i haven't.
blame the herb, my skinny love, it was the herb, not me.

Hey...
My friend just gave me a penny
For these thoughts
That run childishly through treacherous corridors
Of unknown and unseen horrors
These thoughts are the thoughts
Of holding you in my arms
Of kissing lips of heaven touching ecstasy
Of reaching every perfectly sculpted curve
Of just simply being your man
Just thinking of you
That's all anybody needs to know
I'm laying in bed
After a stressful day
I'm just thinking of you
You know I'm tired of loving
So I'm done
I'm tired of giving pieces of my heart away
So if I have to go back in my past
Find every ex lover
Ask for the pieces of my heart back
Fine
I only want to love you
Just thinking of you
Made my mind clear
You're the only one for me
This heart is yours
I'll glue the pieces back together
Don't worry I'll still survive
As long as you love me in return
Because I'm putting everything on the line
Just for you
Because all my mind wants to think about
Is your sweet voice calling my name
Hey...
I was thinking about you today
Still am as a matter of fact
You've been there ever since I woke up
I don't know how long this will take
But hear me out
I know it might be hard to love me
I know you have a hard time
Realizing what I see in you
So I'll tell you
You accepted me as a man
As the monster I became
Smiled when I said "good morning"
Blushed when I said "I wanna date you"
See baby it's the little things
That make me love you
That want me to make this decision final
Just thinking of you today
I swore it was a dream
Hey...
I love you
I don't know why anymore
But I know it's the right decision
Because I'm tired of loving
Woman who can't reciprocate
This awkward emotion of petty games
And I know you love me
For the way I make you happy
Hey...
We're friends that's it
But guess what?
You probably already know this
If you paid attention
To every word I wrote
I love you ;)
Happy Birthday
Merry X-Mas
Feliz día de San Valentín
It's the only gift I could give
I hope you like it
I know it ain't much

At first I wanted to just be friends
You were a shy girl
Not many friends
You tried to hide from the world
In that dark desolate corner you called home
I ended up getting too close
And falling in love with you
I couldn't help it
Your eyes sang a million songs
That made my heart beat to the rhythm of
Your smile aroused billions of butterflies
That fluttered in my stomach
Your laugh created chills
That crawled down my spine
You became the very essence of my poetry
Every line a curve of your body
Every stanza a feature elegantly placed on your body
Every metaphor a slight over exaggeration of your intense beauty
And every thing I wanted to do to you
I thought of every time I glanced in your direction
I wanted to tear the shirt from your chest
Kiss the pulsating veins in your neck
I wanted to feel the curves I wrote about
I wanted to taste every feature
I wanted to smell your perfume
That always seemed to arouse me
I wanted to hear the late night moans
Of your pure pleasure and enjoyment
I wanted to see that intense flame of ****** desire in your eyes
I wanted to embrace you when we were done
I wanted to stay and watch the sun kiss you good morning
I wanted to listen to your breathing slow as you slept
I wanted to love you in more ways than this
I wanted to please your every desire
I wanted to bring you out of the desolate lands of oblivion
I tried my best to love you
But when things got too serious
You abandon everything we ever had
You must of lied to me every time you said "I love you"
You must not have meant it
You used me for the pure desire of self happiness
You got high off my love
You almost over dosed on my *******
Yet you still had the audacity to walk away from it all
Everything I wanted to do to you
I told you
From taking you to watch the sunset in Arizona
To watching the sun rise on the great Pacific Ocean
I made you happy all the time
Yet you only found happiness in sulking in misery
You never wanted love
And you ran from it
Every time it kissed you
I built an empire for you
I built walls impenetrable by foreign enemies
When in all actuality your reason for allowing me to do so
Was to lock me out when you decided to flee
Yet you still find it hard to attend to the walls
As they start crumbling and eroding
Every time I smile
Every time I laugh
And it's not with you
You want me to pretend nothing ever even happened
Yet everything I wanted to do to you
I never hid from you
I was blunt and straightforward
I wanted you to be exited and surprised
When you saw the bill
When you saw how much happiness cost
It cost our love and friendship
So I hope your happy now
I hope your smile is real now
I wanted to be the reason for them
Now all I want to do to you
Is rip your throat out
For leaving my heart
Broken, bleeding, drunk off love, and at my feet
Everything I wanted to do to you
Went from romantic to homicidal
But I just can't find that level of hatred
To even pull it off
Simply because I still love you