I hold down the
sharp edges once again
to allow you a second chance.
they carve their way down,
you don’t care at all
my pain has always been irrelevant.
after all, as you said,
it’s just my medicine.

we could still be
what we wanted to be
after all we’ve been through
I would still let you in.

you are my medicine.

one day you'll ask me why
i hate the smell of beer,
and i'll have to tell you
it filled the air when he hit her,
then you'll notice
how i avoid red wine,
and i'll look away to say that
she reeked of it when she screamed at me,
you'll pick up on
how much ***** makes me gag,
and i'll be ashamed to tell you
i washed it out of my hair at 3 am while sobbing,
i'll push away jack
and you'll be sure to ask why,
and i'll cry and tell you
i can't remember why i hate it,
that i can't remember much at all

and then you'll know who i was
when i wasn't me

I’m tired, I wish I could sleep more.
I went to the bathroom, I looked in the mirror.
I practiced my fake smile, I might need it today.
Black clothes are my favorite, I put a black band t-shirt on.
I put my hair up, I look in the mirror again.
I see a broken hearted girl with parents who don’t love her.
I want to die; I don’t want to fight or struggle anymore.
I wanted to get away from my parents, I still do.
I don’t want to keep moving around.
I feel like a piece of furniture that people buy and then later sell.
My birth-family didn’t want me, my adoptive parents don’t want me do they?

Wildflowers
Remind me of people.
Their all different, not one exactly the same.
Some are beautiful.
Some are bright.  
I love them all.
They bring me joy.

"Your Valley's are rich with your soil, i
stand in it,
Your winds that rage through me like a
herd of wild horses, I breath it.
You surround me with a force of courage.
Your Mountain tops standing at attention
with snow caps touching the bluest sky's.
You surround me with such a blissful joy.
My eyes have become yours, to see the beauty
that you have imposed.
You placed a soul in my created body.
Now i know you.
You surround me with, your precious love.
Yours waters, i swim in,
they refresh me.
I'm now clean in thought's..
You Cleansed me.
I Bow Before You.".....

"Don't you think it's time time, that
you  finally find the time, that you finally
find the time, to follow "The One."
Haven't you had enough time, in your
spare time, to think of the right time, to
follow " The One."
He has given you all his time, for you to
think of the time, for you to think of the time
to give it to "The One."
So, the next time you think of time, please, for your
own sack. Give it to "The One".....
God Bless you all,
Michael....