from what is sensible
i have derived that i am always covered in insects
rats burrow into my mattress at bedtime

i leave in the stingers
i let the bitemarks speak for themselves

because i am sinking
oh god
i am drowning
breathing is more about lung capacity and less about bubbles

i hold my breath and wait

the only items i acquire at the pharmacy
are those that will inevitably erase me
these are the items i enjoy
and they are the items i hold closest

no need to die but
no fear associated with passing

absolute beauty cannot be grasped within this realm
nothing is beautiful
beauty is dead

dry heaving at lunchtime
pulse radiating
through every intact hull

fibers of final standing
remain, and will stay, and will stay, and will stay, at ease and incomplete

look at your hands
are they ***** yet?

i counted every single footstep from the car to here
i ran them backwards through my mind
and then i forgot about it

reactions and
nervous twitches
i have all of you to thank
but no time to do properly pay you back

don't worry
stay the **** away from me

the mouth that never closes
nests crafted out of teeth
trading skin for kindling

i will never be the same again

i am nobody
if i am myself
i am nothing
when i have it all
i am empty
when the cup is full

stay the same forever
but don't tell me who you think i am

i am your newest
latest
most adaptable
most conforming
but least controlling
****** god

termites ate half of my attic
as if to prove that
this is not my house