i say it to contextualize it as something real
and not just another racing thought in my head

i say it loudly
i say it as loud as i can
without screaming
screaming is frowned upon here

i exist to walk on eggshells
and to drown in knee-deep water

fruits of labor aren't nearly as tasty
as those that you can pluck from a tree

and, as long as you remember that seeds exist
eating fruit is safe
always safe

my favorite
thing to do is pretend
that i don't exist

my hobbies include
waiting
and counting blades of grass

some goals that i have are
to tear the fabric of my flesh apart with a ball of wire
and to get a job

the sky cracked open
to reveal entire nothingness

what did you expect?

off the map
off the grid
forever not home

the essence of the relationship is parasitic
why pretend it to be anything else?

finish line crossed
finally
over
done
completed

celebration
not warranted
but appreciated

chambers
doors with no handles

only way to go is out
but there is no out
only in

four walls
companions
the only ones i can claim to know

nameless
faceless
truthfully, they are everywhere

but i am stuck in the middle of nowhere
misery runs cold through my veins

creatures cannot be created to destroy
they can be conditioned to do so