A few years ago
The short existence of
A boy shy and typical
Falsely mistaken
As a queer situation

Then something awoken
Within the boy's
Inner sanctum
An urge deep inside
Could no longer hide

Yet outside forces
Target to suppress
The fire burning
Within the lass' kiln
Now the dilemma
Is dealing with the drama

Does it feel right that it ended
Or as if it was just wasted?
Will another chance come again
Or was that the last time it would happen?

Are you going to ask for a sign
Or just sit back and resign?
Are you going to keep trying
Or **** it in cause its already hurting?

Why can't there be a middle ground?
...Because it makes things vague
Why can't there be compromise?
...Because its just gonna complicate

Unsure, undecided, unmotivated, un...
Discouraged, distracted, disarrayed, dis...
Vindicated, decided, inspired...
Encouraged, focused, collected...
Black or white, make a decision...

If you truly want to make it right
Find a way to put things back in the light
Just keep trying even if it takes every night
It could get better, it just might...

I am not worthy

But down came from above
Light, Father's love

You servant stands ready
But when you call
I still fear

What is there I can offer
That is good

My all for my Savior

I want to get lost somehow,
But I've never been found anyway.
I didn't have to want to get lost,
I just am.