Waiting will get you a life of servitude to a master who doesn't know you even exist.
That being said...I still hope. If you love them, you hope. That's life.
You lose hope sometimes, you wonder why you still hold onto it sometimes.
There's no reason to hope, other than that she's important to me.
It just doesn't matter if it hurts, it's going to hurt no matter what.
You don't have to have expectations to just...hope.
Maybe it's self-destructive, it's probably self-destructive, but that's a moot point.
Honestly, ya know what? Eff that. It is not self-destructive just because other people would rather pretend a thing didn't exist than feel pain.
Pain is growth, a catharsis that leads to healing, and not with self-deception, but by looking the truth dead in the eye.
Hell, even if you **** yourself, you stare that ****** down.
Because the only thing you protect with self-deception is your own ignorance.