'tis a déjà vu,
I've declined...


so now's hello to goodbye...

Our destinies suddenly intertwined,
our souls point the way to our hearts,
I don't care why we met,
the only thing I know
is that I fell under your spell.

The hand I grab
says I won't leave you,
I'll never leave you dear,
I can promise everything now
because there's no tomorrow.


Can you hear something echoing
louder than words?
I'll never waste this chance,
my love will forever be
in your resonance.

Sometimes, I realized
that I don't need you anymore,
your words sounds so cruel
though it's not even my mistake.
You always complain
that I'm doing it wrong,
can you not see
I'm doing it right for you?
You're trying to change the person
you may haven't  known yet,
so stop taking me to the edge,
where the end is near,
for I always let you win
in this tug of war.

But even if you used
to be like what they heard,
I can still find a reason to stay
inside the warmth of your heart.
I'm falling in love even more
the moment you utter my name,
always makes me think
that you're one of a kind,
so why should I lose you?
And so most of the times
I then realized
that I can't imagine
life without you,
that living alone
with no love of yours
feels like committing suicide.

I thank you for the memories
I survived
Thank you for the time,

I thank you for the pain
And all the lies
That made me realize,

But now that I’m alone
How can I walk through the storm?
How can I move on?
Now that I’m alone
How can I be strong?
When there’s no love, no more,

I thought that will be forever
As we dreamt that night
Our love just fades away,

I thought you would never leave
As we promised that night
Why did you walk away?

I know someday
Someone will stay with me.

The lady in red
wakes up every morning in  her bed
seizes the light of the sun
to embrace her day with fun

She changes her mind, yes!
like every girl does
but the lady in red
is now the lady in black

The lady in black
walks with her bare feet at noon
trying eliminate the past
from the tears she ever owned

She changes her mind, yes!
like every girl does
but the lady in black
is now the lady in white

The lady in white
wanders at night the world
from the zenith of her achievements
to the abyss of her downfall

She changes her mind, yes!
like every girl does
and the lady in white
is now back to be the lady in red

And then I found my way back to the corners,
draining salty tears running on my face;
believing for someone's words to whisper,
then you came in the midst of my darkness.

Sudden shivers of my body may never calmed,
midnight sorrows, turned to calling her;
but I was strong enough to bury the pains I had,
for you told me to stand still when I was cursed.

And now loving you is still shrouded in mystery,
but these artifacts will remain for thousand years;
I was perfected by someone's imperfections, indeed,
and then I found my way back to the corners.

Doing this confession that I have never done before
'cause I don't like this aching heart to be prolonged:
I know you want someone more than I have been for,
but can you even treasure something about my words?

You were just a dream, I never thought I would have;
you were just a friend and it was change to love.
I would grab the opportunity just to tell everything I'm hiding:
and the reason is that, I can't go on just pretending.

But why can't you even look straight through my eyes?
Is there anything wrong if I say all the things I lied?
'Cause you know what? I'm the happiest person to have you
so please don't run away, I'll color up your days with my rainbow.

And now, it seems different 'cause you don't feel the same way
you can't even utter just a single phrase to make it clear to me:
please don't judge me from that moment I have found you,
'cause there was nothing which motivated me to tell these to you.

I just want to be honest as I'm now reading between the lines,
and please don't run away, please just stay by my side:
I should've told you lately when it was never too late,
'cause now the time has come for us to be fluctuated.

It’s easy to break
a loving heart,

perfect love
in ruins and scars,

he walked away
from her loving arms.

It’s easy to break
a loving heart,

perfect melancholy
of honeyed cries,

she’s a victim
of a troubled mind.

It’s easy to break
a loving heart,

perfect smiles
lost in wilderness,

once broken
it can’t be replaced.

Lost,
with thy stranger in this valley of love;
we know nothing when it started
      and where the edge will be found.

Entrapped,
from thy mem’ries, but we’ve already escaped;
we hold each other’s heart and mind
      to consume the eterne time,
      with this intimacy we couldn’t e’er forget.


Wand’ring,
with thy stranger who changed my plans;
and now, if the world seems to blur,
      I’d rather to behove thy loving arms.

Trials,
sometimes could lead us to separate the walk;
but in fine of ev’ry misunderstanding,
      we could still foresee those chances
      to meet our hearts and minds at the same road.

Lessons,
as we crossed thy rivers and climbed thy peaks;
and tears, and smiles defined ev’ry chapter
      where this valley that we would take.

Estranging,
thyselves away from the woods, full of dangers;
thine eyes, was once puzzled,
      becometh our ways to be unknown:
      but still we promised, no promises shall be withered.

Forever,
might be benighted, thus, ne’er enough;
as long as we stand still
      with thy hearts and thy minds,
      we’d be together walking through this valley of love.

I do not understand.

I would not.

I could  not.

Remember:

A good chariot, will always have the best steed.

Thy Love is pure from Thee,
no lies, nor fears
no pain, nor tears
for His Light is the reason I can see,
for Thee is my Savior, my Shepherd.

The Love is pure from Thee,
no boundaries, nor walls
no changes, nor faults
for He showed me the Right Path to take,
for Thee is Everything in Everyday.

Thy Love is pure from Thee
no numbness, nor dumbness
no loneliness, nor sickness
for He had forgiven all my wrongs,
for Thee's Heart is what I can call my Home.

Thee loves us unconditionally.
God Bless.

eat me alive

in the darkest
coldest
part of the night

the moon
will not
haunt you

nor follow
your footsteps
in the midst
of our
love's demise

i can smell
your flesh
from afar

eat me alive

i'd rather
be dead
than being
alone

She loves me,

she loves me not...

she loves me!

Before you surrender yourself
to someone else,
think first if that someone
is deserving enough
to take care of your everything.

You are better than the best for me,
and I'm kinda shy, so I sometimes
     walked away;
I hate the way you caught me
     staring at you,
I hate the way I looked around,
     but there's nothing I can do.

So, I wearing all my favorite gestures;
much more, I can't stop reading
     your mind:
perhaps, you're the only exception
     I include
for you are the one who turned back
     my smiles.

I hate the way I can make you laugh,
for some reasons, you might recognize
     I'm into you:
yet I hate it when most of the time,
     I hide,
so maybe you think every time
     I'm dumb and cold.

But most of all
I hate the way I don't hate hate you
not even a blink,
not even a sound,
not even a word I pronounced.

I hope someday
my undying love
will be able
to entice you again,
in order to escape
this heart of mine
which have devoured
by corroded pain.

the clouds
are dancing
beside the moonlight,

i can smell
the fragrance
of the sea breeze,

the wind blows
in sweetest rhythm
of how our hearts
beat when we're together,

the leaves sway
like we hold
each other's hands,

lying in the sand,
i realized,
we never grow up,
we're always
too young
to fall in love

Well, "Life" is a palindrome.

Don't forget to move backward.

Let's now take our best bib and tucker in the closet,
'Tis already Christmas time all over the earth!
Wear your smiles that could turn on the day,
Bury all the worries, and don't forget
     to kneel onto Him and pray.

Giving presence is not the essential part
     of this most-awaited holiday,
Love; the thing that should surrounds us
     on our chosen way.
And we must have to celebrate this
     with a peaceful mind and a pure heart,
For 'tis Christmas time, and there are no reasons
     to be sudden apart.

He will be here again just to be with us,
And we ought to confess all the sins
     we made through the year:
Throw your pride on the garbage can
     and blow each imperfect ash;
'Tis Christmas time, and treasure all your peers.

He's the feather in one's cap;
     He's the Light!
For with His words and doings,
     we are healed this much.
Let's jump at the chances from this season of smiles,
For 'tis Christmas time once again,
     there are no reasons to be sad.

Beautiful --- so beautiful
painting of the eyes
colored with rainbows.

Fly, fly, fly --- faster!
you need to escape;
will o' the wisp.

Flowers bloomed --- then withered
funeral of dreams,
broken dreams.

I opened the door,
I let you in.
I showed you the real me,
I whispered all my secrets.
I flew with you,
I fell from the skies, alone.
I was mistaken,
I thought we're the best of friends.
I opened again the door,
I let you in.

© 2011

In the fire of the night,
let the spark brings light,
let our love burns together,
I will help you lose your fears.

The beauty of the moon,
kisses on our love songs,
filled my heart with love,
butterflies in my stomach.

The time is our only enemy,
I will take your sadness away,
to every twilight of the moment,
I will never let you be broken.

In the fire of the night,
let the spark brings light,
let our love burns together,
I will help you lose your fears.

I'm thirsty.
She haven't felt our hearts beat as one.
She let the tears spilled out
from my eyes;
caged me in this solitary moments.

I can't give her a perfect love story,
so caved for my own treasure,
but my treasure was a fool's gold;
when a girl's kisses,
suddenly is cold.
I refused all the pavements
for every wound she left to remember,
for I'm still searching for a person
who could fill this glass with water.

The end always the end.
But I still see
some of her refracted lights
on the mirrors;
forced me to recall
about the poignant past.
I admit, I let her expectations
perished into ashes of disappointments.

And I still do love her!
She always comes to visit in my dreams,
drawn me not to forget
every detail of her name.
I know we are only separated
by space and time
so I'll wait for her
till no more morning arrives,
for many have tried,
and many have failed;
still no one--
could fill this glass with water.

I thought leaving her
would send you back to me.

Staring at the ceiling
trying to hide from mem'ries
we've been through
now, I'm free from tears,
but why can't I still forget you?

Your shadow crossed mine
but it never took so long,
your lips touched mine,
your arms wrapped around me,
and then left here so alone.

Why did you go away?
When I've almost given ev'rything.
I trusted you.
I forgave you.
Why?

I'm free from being intoxicated.
I'm free from being insane
but why am I still looking after you,
thinking where have you been?

Free.
Yes! I'm free!

That's what I believe.
I don't know if I'm lying
or what.

But at the end of the day,
I keep on running from the past,
I keep on rememb'ring some mem'ries of us
and it brought me...

...not totally free.

Dear poet/poetess,

Here are the compilation of some of my poems,
I just want you guys (if you may) to just check this out...
Will you? Thank you so much.

http://www.wattpad.com/story/3055403-penned-words

But if you find wasting your time reading this
I'm so sorry.
I didn't mean it.
But still, thank you.
Thank you so much.

your beloved,
JELORD

Most of the time,
it is better
to just walk away
through the doors
than to jump off
from the windows.

Tears ---
Distorting life  for decades.
Faded innocence ---
Wars,
Chaos everywhere.

...it freezes like hell,

get your *** back home, here!...

Love is not love —
at first sight,
'tis ne'er love
if there are lies;
'tis neither a rainbow after each rain
nor a remedy for once yesterday's pain.

Love is not love —
with just words to express,
'tis should be drawn to actions, ne'ertheless:
'tis neither steepy mountains
to be moved
nor clouds at the azure sky above.

Love is not love —
if tears weren't shown for distances;
but being far away
  is just a matter of time:
'tis not an air that can make us breathe,
but one of the reasons
why we live.

Love is undefined —
from the absence of two hearts,
'tis should be distinguished
among all the odds;
'tis neither an ocean,
  a pearl, a sunshine
nor the dawn, the day, the night
for love — is love.

You are not
a perfect love poem,
you are full of flaws
and mysteries,
words often rhyme,
often not,
enticing words
are written —
still not enough.

You are
an imperfect
love poem
of an
imperfect poet.

Yet you may not be
a perfect poetry,
still my ink
stained you
with love,
you —
you are perfect
for me.

If thy love has begun, foresee but lies
It might be the ruins to things which rhyme.
Minds be awaken haply ev'ry morn
And perceive a day as if 'tis the last:
Trust thy heart to a tongue, resembles truth
Walk a road that'd ne'er lead to a lost,
And teach oneself to be freed from the scars
To forget the pain from those lonely cries.
If thy love has begun, sail through the wind
Ne'er be afraid to fall, ne'er be afraid;
Smile for happ'ness, grieve for the hard times:
Let thy love decides diff'rent kind of eyes,
For no one can resist or hide from this
Thus, if thy love has begun, accept it.

Stranger came into my nights, and changed it;
the stars shines along the eyes of the moon,
the wind blows perfectly where time meets dawn
and the seeds of thy journey grew e'en more.

This stranger showed the strands of ev'ry truth;
I could still see her between horizons:
whenever love is just, thus, love's a proof
ev'ry pain will be healed for ev'ryone.

The voice of an angel, so sweet and soft;
I fin'lly found one of those things I lost,
through the world laughed upon my countless fall
she were there to remind me of my worth.

She's the reason why sun rose inside me,
why I can still walk, though I stumbled down:
she offered love, thus, love is in return;
I never knew love until I found her.

I never knew love then, 'twas hidden
now, 'tis in my blood which runs through my veins:
for love be pured, thus, ne'er to be declined;
and only diamonds could break its kind.

I complicated your life
with these feelings,
and it's hard to accept
of you being untroubled
with my absence.

I was finding possible ways
to fix every broken word,
but every broken road
lead to me to a conclusion:
love is a luxury
we just can't afford,

You're still beautiful,
beneath the moonlight,
drawn by the clouds,
and I can't be jealous of
seeing you with him,
holding you closer
than I was with you before.