I guess I knew I wasn’t done.
you see, the feeling never faded
it was just negated, if only for a while
late last night you crept into my imagination while I slept
and I finally told you everything I ever wanted to say
how the past is in the past and don’t mean a thing
that your smile is a blessing and without it I sin
trying to fill the core that you left empty
I suppose I envy you now
you’ve got scares
but you live so carefree now

I love that

I wish I wasn’t so concerned about where my heart will lay
when my hair grows gray
I know it’s sad
but I’m convinced that when I complete that part of the puzzle
the image will become clearer
and all will fall into place
it’s just that I’d always imagined you by my side
but it just wasn’t meant to be
I can live with that
because honestly all that I care is that

You are happy
because that’s what I aimed to achieve with you.

And I wonder...
Can have a second or two to get to know you?
Shorty you've been on my mind and I know that we just met but you intrigue me.
Too good to be true isn’t nothing new and you probably heard these words before
but please believe me,
When I tell you you’re smile warms my heart
and that your frown is like a failed attempt at the "push to start"
No key detected, it's left a gap in your core
Never knowing what to expect, you wish for the best but aren't sure what's in store
Because these suitors don't seem to be genuine anymore
Well you know what they say, one man’s trash is another man’s treasure
My lucky penny
they kept dropping you because it's your value they can't measure
And lady treasuring that *** would certainly be my pleasure
All jokes aside, woman of your variety are close to extinction
And to tell you that you hadn't run through my mind all day would be a farce
But that's only because when you compare yourself to the average girl,
omething shines through clearly,  a certain distinction...
Respect and a belief that some things are still sacred,
Like love,
You free as a dove
Yet you allow these nobodies constrict your life
Paralyzed by the experiences I have yet to hear
Understand when you feel you can, I’ll be here
With an accepting and sincere ear
Finally when the night falls
and you feel the need to lay your pretty little head down
I’ll embrace you in my arms with kisses all around
and hold you tight until the sunrise
a few small moments built together which comprise
Of us :)

To the female with the inner struggle
miss, I wish you'd really let it go
even though I ain't one to speak
clinging on to that of which I never had
****, I know it's sad
but at the time,
she meant the world to me
and that's all that ever mattered

Now I've learned that time can accumulate distance
and you're so far gone that you've seemed to have forgotten
he's long gone
and in your fortress of solitude
you reminisce on the moments you shared
it’s no question that you care
but let me ask you a question,
do you think it's fair that your heart aches from a heartbreak
that occurred so long ago?
it's true that the scars you can't see be the hardest to heal
but letting it drown your mind ain’t the best way to deal
believe me I know how you feel
I’m guilty of the same
and from experience I can tell you that
that’s a place I wish to never go back

Realized I was so consumed with her
that there no one else I could possibly prefer
so innocently blinded by the thought of her being the one
I never took time to notice something was wrong
when I did the blame fell on me
when in reality it was her
but all that time ago perfection protected her from any judgment
my only fault, other than expressing how I truly felt…

So hopefully in time
you’ll realize you need to let go
because being reminiscent of what used to be
sometimes highlights what you used to see and believe
compared to what it was in reality.  
Some of life’s lessons leave us feeling like we live in a cold cruel world
but sometimes it just what we need to go on.
A few rhymes for the girl who claims I never have the time.
Be well my friend

Y’all inspire me honestly
a spark created from understanding
lately I ain’t had none
recently lost, GPS receives no signal
an abundance of mirages in the distance
all that’s left is scattered footprints
fading with the sands of time
look at me now, god I ask what’s mine
possessions all material, in a decades past that’d be fine
but a decades past and im left searching for meaning
a little substance with each meeting
a somber thought, that it took till the 18th to reach 2
lines [11] that meant any **** thing to me
my momma told me once, your name is the only thing you own
and family is everything
hard to believe seeing how my abode was shattered
before I had the age to maintain a substantial memory
in time I was interested in some concept called love
held strong by the idea of monogamy
so I searched for someone special
something like a song in ‘04 called “Follow Me”
the melody did me good, my therapeutic remedy
word to confessions,
word to lessons taught to a confused adolescent
dreams I once had shattered by my peers
so my once booming voice grew gradually quiet
so it’d never reach their ears
but I forever remain sincere
even when laughter and ridicule is all I hear
my goal in 13 is to banish my fears
my vow this year is to make this blurred vision clear
reconstruction of the confidence that was once lacking
step up with the school work because I've been slacking
and becoming the individual my true friends are always backing
because it's time I reach my potential.

I wrote a few lines
Back in a time where I thought I knew
Made complications seem as simple as the different shades of grey
She lead astray
Venom racing thru my mind that day
Each second allowing it to coarse deeper into my thoughts
After all the struggle, could you really still have lost?
Fought but never took action
Took another avenue
For the path seemed way to cluttered for the allotted time of two
Conflicted, a tear fell from mine eye
But from the grin that followed the sorrow one could only assume acceptance…
Lost in confusion
I’m sure it’s not a delusion
So I came to a conclusion
Must I let go and grow
Or hold tight and let her know?
...
and I just stopped writing,
finished.

You are quite the looker sweetheart.
tonight I wanted to take a moment to tell you
that you deserve to be treated like a princess,
held like a jewel
and ****** like the little ***** no one knows you are.
if only they knew, they'd be rushing for you.
alas,
the world is filled with the type of women who spread their legs
whenever the heat just so happens to get the best of the moment.
but you're heart longs for more,
& although your body may say yes,
the little tick tock in your chest will not rest.
you see it longs for love...

Truly Yours,
Desire

A Message She’ll Never See
When did you begin to lose faith?
When did you stop believing in what could be
and come to the conclusion that it can’t?
Why do you want what hurts in comparison to what could work
I guess then I should ask why you should settle for less
when you can work for what you want
but it’s not like we’re kids anymore,
time has taught us that plus distance is an added factor
but we never added that
In some respect,
we could come together and still be those same people
who laugh and chill as if nothing ever changed
but it has and that’s what keeps us at bay
I could say “I love you”
but I could never mean it the same way
Then I could say “I miss you”
but that doesn’t guarantee that you’d stay.
People change,
I accept that but I just hope that you know
I pray that you never let go,
of this thing called love.