I'm sorry you gone and taken away from my life, just to let you know you will always be my best mate for life.



I can feel you smiling now because the Angels are holding you tight, my friend I Miss You Loads everyday and all night.



You will always be in my thoughts and make my smile come alive; you always find away to show me my life is al-right.



I wish I could hold you and see that smile in your eyes, I miss you that’s right that’s the truth I can’t lie the memory you have given me is an emotion that’s nice.



So till I meet you again my good friend Good bye good night and please sleep tight just know that your memory is locked away deep inside.



Were all my happiness lives that makes me smile all the time.



Jidos Reality 8.11.11

Should you ever leave! he’ll become a Homeless man broken and cold on the street, his Dreams will run away as far away from him as they can be.




His Lonely Soul would try to find a way through his torched mind as his memories slowly eat away at him.




His heart was Crumbling the more he prayed for his Smile to come and save him, his Destiny was lost in a Shadow with many tears Lost in Dreams whispering to him. 




Isolated from the world his Hour Glass would never set him free, Everyday was a battle as his Nightmares took hold of him.




Death wouldn’t even wait around the corner to come and save him his life is now filled with Misery and cold pain from deep-within. 




Silence was not a wish that held the key to his destiny, his Smile made no sound as his tears would start to scream.




Should you ever leave you’ll take away everything that’s close to him.




Jidos Reality 15.10.12

I’ve been thinking about you and the things that you do, I really like you loads and I want to be with you.

Want to hold you when you lonely and be the reason you smile I want to be the one there for you when you need a shoulder to cry on.

I’ve never felt so happy since you’ve been in my life, you amazing and Beautiful I just need to tell you.

I want you to trust me and know I’m always there for you, I want to be your lover and your best mate for life, and I want to hold you close to me all night.

My love just want to let you know you make me tingle in-side, The cuddles we have are so lovely they nice, I want to always catch that tear and tell you everything will be alright.

I know things aren’t simple that’s not how they supposed to be, but if we try we can share this moment just you and me.

Jido Reality 5.3.10

My mind is Blocked it’s broken like a stone, this rizzla I'm holding is the only life that I know.



Go away and run away see my soul has become cold, it’s trapped in the past its future could never be told.



It’s lost on a rough and bendy looking road Silence is alive but lost in a dream were many story’s could never be told.



It’s looking for the cradle where it came from before it was born, a place that has no destiny only time that protects its soul.



Where words have no meaning and memories are never known, where sound makes no noise and every feeling keeps you cold.



Every touch has no dream for a moment you wish you were free, to hold onto your life as it teaches you how to breath.



My smile craves for a cuddle but it’s locked up in a dark little cupboard, secrets whisper things that I never what to see when I sleep.



Go away and don’t look back at this thing that’s taken hold of me.



Jidos Reality 18.11.1

Reality is the only dream I live in, I've stopped searching for the clues to the life of my destiny. 

I feel left all alone as cold as a stone that's covered by snow. Today felt like a silent picture searching for sone colour in it's world.

The ones that I trust are only happy when I hurt, I fought all my demons by my self when I was been kicked lying there in the dirt.

This picture was painted by an artist with a broken brush that had no thirst. It's colours were as dim as a fire fly been swallowed by the mist.

The road in this picture leads to a dark place were silence lives. Were screams feed the heart beat life that makes it hurt.

Were pain will not go! It gets deeper as your tears only make it grow. The trees have no leafs! Only branches filled with lost memories that twist.

The rain drops are cold, the wind seems to whisper shhhhhhh! Like it knows. It wonders and moves around this picture with no were to go.

The moon is dim it's light has run away from the night, taking away all the stars that shine bright, because they happiness never felt right.

Come with me into this picture that's so cold.

JidosReality 4.4.13

I don’t know why I stopped to express myself and Write it feels like I've been in an accident, forgetting how to use a fork and knife.


Got to ask the waiter for a spoon looks like ill be having soup tonight, I hit a brick wall the night I felt my Poem Book shut its self up tight.


I got chills in my bones My Pen had forgotten how to write, these withdrawals of my thoughts seem to want to run away and hide.


They've given up this fight my sanity come alive with this pen when I write; every word is Crushed into pieces each one searching for a fight.


It felt like been in an old house Scared and Haunted as I write My Pen picked me up and took all this pain out of my life.



It taught me how to think and stop my thoughts from twisting me deep inside, my eyes would always light up and wonder at about what I write.


The Ink is my best friend on every line that has never tested me, every word has a meaning and My Pen shows me what I'm feeling.


Jidos Reality 5.12.12

I had to write this for you I have to let you know, you always make My Heart Happy but now it’s sad because you got to go.

You picked me up when I was down and showed me how To Smile you always seem to bring life into this Broken Heart of mine.

You truly amazing my Angel you one of a kind, you the happiness to the smile on my face, every time I feel down I close my eyes and remember what you always say.

Don’t worry my friend everything will be okay, and I thank you for this from the bottom of my heart you will always be My Best Mate.

So Good By my good friend till we need another day.

Love Loads JidosReality

I love it when I see a smile all over your face; it’s such a lovely memory what a beautiful place.



You not only like my Mum but one of my best mates, you always there for me to make me happy no matter what it takes.



You keep my heart strong as I forget all my fears every day, your heart is warm and lovely like an Angel you can never be replaced.



You dry my tears when I cry and replace them with a smile all over my face, when the days are dark and my mind was cold as snow.



You wrapped your warm “Angel Wings” around me and made sure I was warm, you calm the storm in my head and made “My Heart Beat” Beat again.



When my world is upside down you take me to a place where happiness comes from.



Jidos Reality 8.11.12

My reflection looked at me with no life in it's eyes. It put it's hand out the mirror and grabbed me by the throat, and pulled me inside into it's world on the other side.

It was like standing in the dark watching my own shadow cry. My thoughts were all screaming! Crushing me as I tried to stop thinking.

My anger turns into rage. No laughter on my reflections face, sadness has taken over happiness has lost it's place.

So cold in a world were the sun shines all day, were the stars always shine every night they shine so bright.

As I look and wonder? Why my shadow cry's it makes me numb. My destiny has been chosen death will have to come.

A voice starts to whisper you won't be missed, you were never loved. Take these pills an cut your wrists.

Your life has no meaning, once you dead you can stop screaming. Don't be afraid of the other world were broken souls and tears have to go.

A place were there's no reflection and many mirrors waiting to watch you waiting. 

All your problems seem to be lost, and your thoughts no longer rot. Your heart will never beat and crave love from deep with-in. 

My shadow doesn't speak it stands there as silent as the darkness all around me.

JidosReality 24.1.14

Time cannot be measured by the Days that you have experienced, you cannot fear the Future when the Past is almost near. 




This second will be a minute what an hour another year, another day gone just listen cant you hear. 




Today felt just like yesterday could it be like a different day? Maybe today will bring more Meaning to everything that I say.




When a Breath is taken another blink is created another world a different sound will be created, another story this chapter is re-created. 




This memory is exploited different days that have taught us the Truth will always stalk us. 




When you lie behind the truth it will always stare you in the face, the Mirror never lies it will always tell a story that has to be played. 




Always takes you back to that memory that u want replaced.Smiles and Tears all have one thing in common they expressions that only ever show up on your face.




Jidos Reality 12.10.11

I'm as nervous as a Tear Drop that’s about to be caught by a smile, my stomach is filled with butterfly’s that have no were to hide.



I'm shaking like a cloud that’s filled with thunder that’s about to bite, I'm sweating like the desert in the summer time.



That has just seen a mirage lost some were in the dark night. My thoughts create visions of my emotions slipping bye.



I wonder why they whisper as each one comes alive; they Trapped in my head all fighting for a place to hide.



My smile try’s to catch them but the reflection in the mirror has already got them, the words that I speak seem to have no meaning to what they think.



To lie would make me think has the truth just left me, the truth is the beginning of the past, the weakest link to every question that we ask.



A silent word that slowly eats away fast, many lies become long Shadows trying to open up doors that are locked.



The truth cannot be replaced even when memories have lost they place, I'm as nervous as a Tear Drop that will be lost some were in the past.



Jidos Reality 19.1.12

What a promise this is a wish come true, I don’t have to worry about bills or borrowing money of you.

I don’t have to worry about waiting for a bus when I’m in a rush when it’s raining, whilst I’m watching you drive pass.

No fuss no more empty stomach that’s the past, No more beans on toast I’m loving  my Sunday roasts All my food is now fresh not four days old.

I never saw it coming and it did, and I never run i waited for this moment i always hoped that it would come and now it’s in my life ill make sure it’s never gone.

I hope you read what I’m writing and understand where it’s from, A promise is a gift a wish that comes along it will always be lost my a memory that feels wrong.

A thought in my head because my heart has just turned around its looked at the truth through the eyes of the lies in the dark.

My mind is amazing it understands all this love from my heart; they will both be there together from the end till the start.

Jidos Reality 25.10.11

Happiness is the price I had to pay for my smile it came along and all it did was made me cry.

The smile the twinkle in my eye the days when I thought I was by myself, the medication the mad house talking to a mouse no answer back because I was lost.

The sound felt so soft a Cold Chill running away very fast, Thoughts leaving my head taking me back to the past.

Reminding me that I could never be loved I would always be starved I looked for happiness but all I lost was love.

Found it hard to trust begun to feed on anger my world was lost in the past, I hate happiness it crushed my heart very hard.

I open my eyes but all I see is the dark, no light at the end but a cold door waiting for me to pass.

Hears the key there’s no rush it will take it’s time and eat away at my broken beating heart.

Happiness is a word I want to leave in the past.

Jidos Reality 15.10.12

Why do you think you running around collecting “Stars” filling many jars up with your heart?




Hiding behind your fake smile this illusion will have to stop, falling down a dark hole the more your love has to starve.




It’s lost like the night were there’s no full moon to show you light, your heart doesn’t beat it’s filled with lies that want to fight.




Destroying everything in peoples life’s that are right, You twisted and scared your heart is as dark as the shadow by your side. 




Your smile is so sad it tells me a story that’s from hell, were fire always burns and hatred turns and lives in your veins. 




Pain whispers words that make you sick, the faster you fall the deeper you think sometimes you need to stop and face the truth when it speaks.




Open your ears and set all you emotions free find the key that you lost and open up your destiny.




Don’t let hate take over you or all the lies control you something isn’t right, every night I’ll pray for you. 




Jidos Reality 21.10.12

As my Mind Twists and turns deep with-in inside, my Broken soul has no were to run away and hide. 




From all these Fears my Tears create from running down my eyes, if only I was taught how to laugh than maybe these tears would be a memory I’ll never ever want to be lost.




I’m scared of loneliness I’ve got no one there to love my heart, I don’t even have a birthday wish or my name on any ones Christmas card. 




I’ve Lost everything everyone I’ve ever loved; I took for granted everything they did for me back in the past.




The future holds nothing for me but Pain trapping me in the dark, My poor souls crying out can you help me because I’m lost,can you fill the emptiness that I’m feeling in my heart.




I just want it to stop I don’t want it to rot; I don’t want it to take away the little happiness I have left in my heart.


Because if it’s taken away it will be gone it will be lost. 

It will never come back to my Broken Beating Heart.


I hope you like my honesty I just didn’t know where to start. 

I’m only looking for Love that thing that Protects and always warms up your heart. 




Jidos Reality 13.10.11

They were staring at me with Evil looking eyes; with not funny faces this dream had come alive.


It’s making me scared to sleep at night; I hear knocking at the door and can feel this dream is filled with horrible thing’s to show my eyes.


I'm scared but as much as I bite my pillow it can’t do anything to make me smile, The evil is hear it’s come to be my friend tonight.


Won’t you help me I Scream and Shout and Cry! This dream is a lonely feeling I have to get control and a hold of it tonight.


It makes me so scared it got a hunger that bites this horrible dream is something that will always be the reason I don’t smile at night.


It makes me numb been in the dark not able to move feels like I'm stuck Paralysed from the bottom to the top, my eyes are open and screaming wake up!


I'm trapped in a dream that has no end to its start; I'm lost in a world that’s brought fear to my heart.


My heart beats faster raging as it runs; this dream is a thing taking me were horrors scream out because they lost.


Jidos Reality 30.11.12

I’m defining every Word that has ever been Spoken I’m rearranging every line that I wrote that feels Broken. 




I’ll be causing a stir bringing Thunder Storms to this ocean, show you this Mirror you looking at this Reflection ain’t broken.




It’s been put together like a Puzzle Piece it always fits, It’s stronger now more than ever I’ve never felt even better. 




The Meaning to the words that I Write always speak, they will either make you Smile or Cry or make you Think. 



There was a Time in my Life when I was broken and I was weak, I was Locked in a Padded Cell were only silence used to speak. 




It used to tell me and make me wonder about the things that I did, the Madness the Sadness all the Happiness that I missed. 




And now I’m happy because the madness has made me Write Poetry! that’s so deep, It comes from the Heart I can only tell the truth it’s just how it is.




Jidos Reality 20.10.11

Some days I start thinking about thing’s, things that make me fall asleep in my dreams. Every day is a new story, that’s how my life seems.

I got to close this chapter to wake up from this dream. It’s easier said than done, that’s how it seems. Pop a pill or two and my thoughts become clean.


Then I stop and think? How should I change this thing? My life’s a blessing, no more thoughts that scream.

I bought a bunch of roses and even got you a ring. No, she says. Then I start to think, what a stupid thing. I should have thought first before buying this ring. And for those roses, well that’s another thing.


Maybe I should close my eyes and count to three. Then open them up, this maze in my mind my thoughts become free. I should get a tattoo labeled someone help me.

People stop and stare, whispering, pointing fingers at me. I don’t really care my thoughts are now free.

Next time you come around and want to see me. I’ll be pointing my finger at you not me.

It’s such a funny place, the places I’ve been. It’s such a strange view, which my eyes have seen. Have you ever felt weak at the knees?

You find it hard to understand, is it all about me! I’ve got to take a walk to find the magic tree. Lay down on my back watch the birds fly free.

This weekend was lovely, no one there for me. Nothing but the sun, the beach and the sound of waves around me.

Jidos Reality 13.2.11