Up until my insomnia meets me
I lied when I said I forgot
I was scared what you'd think
If I said that  I love you a lot

People have only cared for minutes
Leaving me to care for days
When I look at you all I can think
Is please don't go away

I can see me in your eyes
I dream of dreaming with you
I can trace your scars with mine
My thoughts are bleeding through:

My Talia, I know what it's like to not be seen;
what it's like to be alone in a crowded room.
For you, my star, I want you to know:
that no one shines as bright as you.

I can taste you moving on my skin.
My gasp is air you sustain.
hand in hand, under an umbrella
with you, I am safe.

Forever beautiful until I saw you in raw sunlight
and realized you didn't shine anymore
you told me you would always love me
and ever since then I can’t believe anyone

I hate April now
it’s one of my least favorite months
and I blame you for that

One of the last times I saw you in your
beautiful tall pale freckled naked frame
you were inside of me and
you looked somewhere at my chest and
said you loved me

But you could not look into my eyes

And about ten minutes later when I was
resting my hipbones on yours
I started to cry

And instead of holding me close
and drying my eyes
you pushed me off
pulled on your pants
and left

and that was when I realized you are a
fox with a stone cold heart
incapable of caring for anyone

Much less loving them

Ich will keine Ausreden brauchen
zu bleiben oder gehen;
ich will nur die Fähigkeit haben
zu bleiben oder gehen als es mir beliebt.

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I don't want to need Excuses
to stay or go;
I just want to have the Ability
to stay or go as it pleases me.

Sitting on the porch
cigarette smoke swirling
all around.
The darkness is only lit by
hundreds of fireflies
and that little burning ember.
I remember you reaching
for my hand, electrifying.

"Look into my eyes"
I could tell you wanted
me to see something.

I remember like it was yesterday.
Endless pools of suffering with
so much amount of heartache
I could almost feel the daggers
in my chest.

There is afternoon in our mind
And Dreams wake up when the light is gone.

all I'll remember from this April

is you

leaving me.

Intrusive thoughts..
Salty Sweet..
Shake the ground,
Beneath my feet.