We were the mystery
We were the shaking of heads
We were the whispers in the bathroom at 11 am

We were the smoke in the hallways

We were the leaves catching on air currents
like "I don't care how or why but I'm going somewhere"

We were balled up bills in the crook of
someone's sweaty Xanax palm

We were the lamps at night burning
We were the lasers on the ceiling
We were the lines of chemicals waiting on the counter

We were nothing good
nothing but mud and regrets on our feet

The teachers shook their heads
wondered to themselves how we ever got to sleep

A rich mans pockets are far too deep
Considering how shallow his heart

are we dying to be skinny,
or are we dying,
to be skinny.

IF THIS BODY
WEREN'T MINE
WOULD I STILL
HATE IT?

Reminder:
It's better to be losing her in books
than losing her to someone else.

a.g

i am heavy
[with ugly emotion
that nobody
deserves.]