It was all without
For what of us
Do ***** on the hour
She drunk as liquor
He like toast

Roses are red
Violets are blue
They both die in the end.

I gave you my attention
and you took it
like fame

I gave you my love
and you took it
like medication

I gave you my everything
and you took it
like nothing

I gave you myself
but I can’t say you took it
because you never did

Darling, you don’t love me
like I love you
and I blame it on the past

I’m never taking history again.

When you left, you took with you my ability to move,
My ability to breathe, my ability to speak.
You stole my muscles and my bones,
My senses and my desires.
I can no longer taste your lips on mine,
Or smell your shampoo on my pillow.
I can no longer hear your voice calling my name,
See your smile, nor feel your hands wrapped around my waist.
All that is left for me to feel is the crushing blanket of loneliness,
A knit wool too warm to cuddle with under the covers,
Too heavy to hold to my chest to give it freedom to rise and fall.
My body is numb, my brain is numb, my heart is numb.
I can feel the darkness of the vast and empty night sky above me,
Slowly lowering down to Earth, directly to my empty bed,
And for a single moment, I want to feel like the universe is safe,
Like it isn’t about to crush me and my heart isn’t about to explode.
For I am left without shield, you, my warrior, my one-man army,
And I am immobilized and unprotected,
And there is no way in hell I can win the next World War against myself.
Escape is my only option to divert the attention from my hiding place,
To prevent the enemy of me from further destroying my soul and consuming my body.
So if I’m lost, please don’t find me, and if I jump, please let me sink,
For darkness has fallen on this sunlit winter day,
And the sweet crescent moon no longer casts a light on my pillow,
Leaving only shadows of Heaven in the darkness.

I could say I’m happy now
And you’ll believe me
Because you’ll see my smile,
The thin, red line on my face.

But you won’t see the one on my skin.

Your words hit me like a catastrophe of nature
Swallowing me in like a deadly tidal wave
Washing up every ******* feeling in my body
And breaking every source of support within me.
They come at me like a raging fire
Destroying my lungs as they turn to flames
Making me forget how to breathe
Any time I think of your name.
Your words are a black hole
******* me in until there is nothing left
Leaving no evidence of our existence
And burning out every light in my eyes.
They shake me like a magnitude ten earthquake
Ripping my heart to shards
The ultimate source of destruction
For anything thought to be sure.

When I ran into your arms,
After four months of being apart,
I felt something new.
There was a new electricity,
Some sort of eccentricity,
Drawing me forth to your scent
And ******* my soul to your being.
I saw you again the next day,
But only a mutual glimpse in passing
Deepened our connection,
Tightened the puppeteer string between our hands.
I saw you again the next night,
At our first lone dinner,
Full of awkward laughter and true smiles,
Ending with ****** tension thick enough to slice
With the blades I keep in a little purple box in my sock drawer.
You told me you wanted to cut that tension,
Tear our preventative electrical wire to shreds
So you could reach my lips.
But then you left.
Five days of me without you,
Me determining ways I could destroy our barrier,
Thinking up the different speeds I could run into your arms,
You mingling the crowds in a far away place,
Feeling the lips of another girl.
And you had the audacity to tell me,
To be proud of your endeavors in lust,
Not thinking twice about your words to me.
I don’t forget words.
Especially yours.