If my poetry
           Can achieve
                        What I want
It will be
A legal way
For you to get
High

Who wants to follow me
Into oblivion?
Who believes when I say
Its the only way
To ever be truly free?

Not constrained by what we perceive
The money we need to live
The love we need to be happy

Who wants to follow me
Over the event horizon?
We can bring our light
Into the blackest hole

I see the world
So differently
I tried to paint a Picasso
And it ended up looking like a Rembrandt

The more distorted I try to paint reality

it's 2am Saturday night
just a few left in the bar.
Ella is lilting like a songbird

Every time we say goodbye

I have lost count of the drinks
the bartender pours me another one?
she leans  forward to show
her cleavage but I don't care.
I think of you
flying around your cage
like an imprisoned bird
lusting for blue skies.
I opened the cage door
and you flew away.
I swallow my pour
it's burn in my throat like fire.
all I can do is pull up
the memory of you
and lose my fingers
in your hair.
Ella croons the last soulful
chorus line

Every time we say goodbye.

I know this is not a poem
but it should be.

Maybe I should of ran, and dashed
Grabbed your gun, when I had the chance
I'm trying to keep the burning tears behind my eyes
Trying desperately to maintain my disguise
I know you don't see what I really could be
Or loaded guns you wouldn't have left with me

My actions where becoming feral
As I put in my mouth the cold steel barrel
But this being your gun, and the blind trust you showed
You seeing me with the back of my head blowed
Pieces of me
All over the trees
Well.....I couldn't let that be
So I removed the gun from my mouth, put it away
When you came back I smiled like it was just any other day

You look surprised that you were gorged
By that little beast, that *****
All along you knew she was a *****
Hell, on her back it's plainly stamped

So now your stuck upon her horns
In her clutches of sharpened thorns
As piece by piece, she'll take you apart
You'll know when she's done, you'll be missing your heart

You put physically beauty, before the beauty in the heart
So you got exactly what you sought

I watch and I snicker
Because your cranium was thicker
Than the words that I said
Not a syllable reached a brain cell in that head

I don't feel a twinge of guilt
You can live in what you built
I'll watch it crumble down
With a smile on my lips, as you are forced to wear that crown

Your Secret Love

Like the quiet that takes the prayers
up beyond these golden stairs.
Like the glowing heat of loves desire
that burns silently inside like a fire.
like the silence of a child in sleep
without a sound its dreams it  keeps.
like the silent breath of a summer night
stirring softly sweet and light.
like the knowing glance in a lovers eyes
filled with silent need and sighs.
Like the silent stillness of the lake
waiting for the dark to break.

*is how I give myself to you