JSK - Hello Poetry

JSK Oct 2013

When we're together
I can pretend
I can act like I don't care
Talk to you like you're nothing
Like you don't affect me
Like it doesn't hurt anymore
I can pretend I'm happy you're working things out with her
But when I look at your face and close my eyes
It all comes back
I can remember the feel of your skin on mine
The shape of your lips
Lovingly enveloping mine
I can feel our hands intertwined
I remember what your hug feels like
How I could squeeze you tight and feel your bones
I still remember the exact feeling of my fingers on your jaw
Just like it was yesterday
It was six months ago today
And I still can't forget
I don't think I ever will

JSK Oct 2013

W

You're sweet
You make me laugh
You have great hands
You're dense as hell
I want you to hold my hand
All the time
Walking into your room was great
I could see how childish and fun you are
But I'm worried
I want you to know what you're doing
I don't want to get hurt because of your lack of experience
I can't see us together
Because I can't see myself opening up like I need to
I can't
I won't
I'm scared.

JSK Oct 2013

Smile

A smile is a wonderful thing
It's exercise for your face
A distraction from life
For bits at a time
You share yours
It makes people forget all of the bad
Just for a second
You've brightened someone's day
By just rearranging your lips

JSK Oct 2013

Let Me Help

You look like someone I could fix
We could talk
Share
Be broken together

That's my thing
Fixing people is my specialty
I give advice
Counsel
Help them

If only if it were that easy
For me

JSK Oct 2013

Untitled

I shouldn't have done it
I should have never told you
I opened the door
Things escaped
They ran out and invaded my brain
Again
I shut the door
But couldn't quite put everything back
Where it was before

JSK Sep 2013

I like being happy

I like being happy
I like laughing
Smiling
Having tears roll down my cheeks is joy

I like being happy
Having fun
Hanging out
Just being with people I love

I like being happy
I don't like being sad

And that's why I write.

JSK Sep 2013

Feelings

I don't think about them a lot
I pretend they're not there
They're just bit swirling around in my head
Spinning around my heart
Sometimes they're happy
Sometimes they're sad
Sometimes they're so confusing it's just a big jumbled mess
I can deal with messes
I can clean things
Rearrange things to make them fit
They don't go away
They just get moved around
Shuffled about
I can manipulate them
I have to so they don't consume me
They used to
Everything was based off of how I felt
If it was a bad day, people knew
I didn't realize how important it was
To build a wall
To block them off from the world
Now they don't get through the wall
Unless I open the door
They don't control me
I control them
Until I cant'
When that day comes
The wall will break
And so will I
Again.