Are they invisible,
the bruises on my face,
the ****** scars across my chest,
and the fury in my gaze?
All my blood wasted,
seem infinite, these heavy tears.
Will I ever breathe in,
a breath that wouldn't burn?

'Evil' and 'ungodly'
It's heaven exploding in my ears
'Sinister' and 'disgusting'
I feel my brain sing
'Satanic' and 'wicked'
I bang my head to the sickest beat.

My backstabbed dreams
Lament the dripping knife in my hands

If you ever cared to look back,
you would have seen me miserable,
falling far behind you on bleeding feet,
at each monstrous step you take,
screeching for you to stop;
begging for you to spare me.
But you never did, nor ever heard me.
And you will never know when my cries fade out,
finally, into the solace which forbids your haunt.

Surrounded by the murkiest shades of grey
I find myself torn, lost and dazed
A heart forlorn, longing for the blissful days
Of just black and white, so plush and plain.

Paralyzed,
I stare ahead;
Everyone is long gone.

I sigh, drenched in guilt,
Feeling my consciousness scream.

They were deaf as I screamed;
Blind, when i couldn't speak;
Angry, when I started to burn;
In flames, as my ashes kissed the earth.

Never saw my terrified mind,
When it was screeching to be free.
At last it was free amongst the flames,
Or so it thought, 'fore it refused to burn away.

Pain bloomed,
along its festering vines
It's tendrils
peered through my eyes
I could feel them,
throughout my exposure
choking me, suffocating.
I was reborn
I was trapped, content.
My body, never again was rhythmic
With fueled strength,
I watched in distance,
how they burned.

The nervous flicker of the candle's light
Dances wildly in my glistening eyes.
Feeling the cold night's tight embrace,
I quietly watch as the candle burns away.

Then I glance at my own guilty hands,
Smoothest skin ending at bitten down nails.
While my frenetic heart slams against my ribs,
Loud and clear, over and over again.

I dream of you desperately
I picture my arms around you tightly,
my face buried in your chest;
begging you to melt my frozen tears away...

though my limbs waver when I think of you,
I'd **** for you to seize me when I least expect it