The nervous flicker of the candle's light
Dances wildly in my glistening eyes.
Feeling the cold night's tight embrace,
I quietly watch as the candle burns away.

Then I glance at my own guilty hands,
Smoothest skin ending at bitten down nails.
While my frenetic heart slams against my ribs,
Loud and clear, over and over again.

'Evil' and 'ungodly'
It's heaven exploding in my ears
'Sinister' and 'disgusting'
I feel my brain sing
'Satanic' and 'wicked'
I bang my head to the sickest beat.

Paralyzed,
I stare ahead;
Everyone is long gone.

I sigh, drenched in guilt,
Feeling my consciousness scream.

If you ever cared to look back,
you would have seen me miserable,
falling far behind you on bleeding feet,
at each monstrous step you take,
screeching for you to stop;
begging for you to spare me.
But you never did, nor ever heard me.
And you will never know when my cries fade out,
finally, into the solace which forbids your haunt.

My backstabbed dreams
Lament the dripping knife in my hands