japheth

japheth May 2018

petals

and just like that,
all the petals
of the flower
you once gave me
withered.

although
my vase still has
the stem,
it serves no
purpose anymore.

like any other
useless thing,
i’ve decided
to throw you away.

wasn’t able to write anything down over the weekend because i’m too busy getting a tan lol

but here’s a little though t i had when i suddenly uprooted my plant again and had to repot it.

#life #feel #emotions #whither

japheth May 2018

are you?

they say,

“everything happens

for a reason”

now

i’m wondering,

will you be

everything

that’ll happen,

or

the reason?

just a little something something before i drink tonight.

#think #feel #emotion #wonder #reason #fate

japheth May 2018

song

you

will forever be

associated to that

one particular

song —

it’s

my choice now

if i should continue listening to it

and keep hurting myself.

and i won’t.

#song #feel #sad #emotion #bitter

japheth May 2018

wait

i can’t wait

for you to leave me.

i can’t wait

for you to love me.

i can’t wait

for you to suddenly
disappear
leaving me with nothing
but questions

and

ghosts of you
scattered across every place
i look at.

i can’t wait

for you to suddenly
message me
saying,

“everything’s alright.”

comforting me with your embrace,

removing the tears
i’ve spent thinking of
endless possibilities —
which most are negative.

i can’t wait

to fall again
knowing that
at the end of the height,
i’d be welcomed by

a hard

concrete

floor;

cemented by

life’s greatest work — fate.

i can’t wait

to stop

o v e r t h i n k i n g.

put me out
of this misery,
by telling me

“i’m here.”

you know anxiety attacks you suddenly? especially when you don’t expect it at all?
i’m having one right now.

so instead of sulking, here’s a ****** piece i made. this is what goes on my mind at its rawest.

i present to you, me in my purest form. my darkness which i try to fight everyday.

but instead of giving in, i give it out. i weave this uncoventional thread to art.

i’ll thrive.

#art #feel #emotion #anxiety #darkness

japheth May 2018

traveler

like a traveler

without a map,

i’m lost.

however,

like a traveler

without a map,

i’m enjoying

the unknown.

i’m focusing on

the beauty

of what’s around me.

i’ll ask questions

as to where i am,

later.

sooner or later,

i know,

that i’ll discover where i’m supposed to go

or

that i’ll get more lost.

whichever, i’m happy.

i haven’t been able to write recently, and i’m slowly getting lost in the moment. few weeks back, a horoscope told me that april will be a month full of love. and thinking back, i totally agree with it.

ive been showered with love and i’m still trying to receive every bit of it. irregardless, i’m happy.

now i’m just looking outside of the bus window wondering what will my May look like. will i get lost? will i discover something? idk, but im excited.

#travel #life #lost #happy #feel #emotion

japheth Apr 2018

for

for

the people

who just came in,

who stayed,

who said farewell,

and for those who left

without saying goodbye,

thank you.

some afterthought i had in the afternoon to cap off my melancholic noontime

#feel #gratitude

japheth Apr 2018

eclipse

“i guess i’ll see you again real soon.”

the moon said

as it lets out a tiring but content sigh.

“yes,

my great companion.

for now,

rest.

you have work again tomorrow.”

the sun replied.

“till the next eclipse?”

the moon asked longingly.

the sun smiled,

as its eyes

followed the moon’s

light go dimmer,

it lets out a calm response,

“till the next eclipse.”

#eclipse #sun #moon